| Saturday, February 21, 2009,12:46 AM |
cause of mood swings again.
im sorry to the people i've hurt during these mood swings
but i really cant do anything about it.
the more i try to be happy, the sadder i become.
i guess im forever cursed with mood swings.
i made a discovery.
what i suspected was right.
i cant change after all.
saying it is very easy but doing it is very hard.
i've not only been hurt, but have hurt.
i've hurt a lot of people without really knowing.
because im very simple minded like that.
i know im very vengeful. but then, try to change is already not bad le.
like f2a's motto.
it's not how much you've done but what you have done.
i fail to do that, and to make things worse, i know i cant do it.
i can only keep hurting people without knowing, i dont deserve any of my friends.
and im 100% sure they'll be better off without me in their life.
im only a burden to everyone and always make other people mad.
i need carmy a lot right now.
carmy, where are you?
if you're reading this, please go online. please.
i wish you could bring me to KL with you.
i'll miss you a lot when you're gone.
edits;;
sometimes i wish that gerald was a girl.
i'd love to hug the girl gerald.
cause he's always there to cheer me up when im crying.
my keyboard says thanks to gerald for saving it.
| Friday, February 20, 2009,6:15 AM |
and oh, btw, im forgiven ;D
BUT YEAH. OMG -.-
i died 5 times just now when i found out.
what did i find out?
will blog about it tomorrow.
cause i have to confirm it first.
but but T__T
im scared to meet that person. so how? T__T
for the sake of finding out, i HAVE to meet him D:
curse you curiousity.
and lol
im blogging again =p
im such a hypocrite xD
btw, gift square is updating tomorrow! YAYYYY! -happy dance-
| Thursday, February 19, 2009,10:34 PM |
i currently have an emotion problem since yesterday.
scared - happy - wtf mood - pissed - worried - annoyed - happy - annoyed - confused - idc mood - emotionless.
yeah, my cycle of emotions from yesterday till right now.
i have no idea how i feel right now.
im supposed to be annoyed, but im not.
i just finished this layout.
theme : hell.
i like what i did.
too bad there's no red in this layout.
i adore red.
maybe gonna re edit again if i have the mood to.
| Wednesday, February 18, 2009,9:28 PM |
i think im pissing alot of people off right now because im online but dont want to chat with anyone.
but i dont really care.
because it seems that i dont have much emotions right now.
i might regret it in the future, but now i really dont know.
when i say i dont feel like chatting to you, then i just dont.
it's better to do something else than wasting your time trying to talk to me
because you wont have much of a positive response from me.
i really dont know what to do, but i really want to know.
why is life so hard?
why do other people have better lives than i do?
what did i do to deserve all this, huh?
give me a reason to accept all of this in.
i effing hate all of this.
i dont want to talk to anyone anymore.
it seems like everything i say or do will end up as something bad.
someone's mad at me, but i dont even know why.
another person is hating me because i was cold to him.
i got a good person into trouble yet i couldnt even do anything about it.
and he wont even hate me for all of this.
i really really wish i could trade lives with my other friends.
for once, i wish nothing bad would happen for just one day.
i guess im not fated to have that type of life?
i'll have to adapt to it? right?
i apologize in advance to whoever i will piss off in the near future.
i think this time, i really wont be happy for real again, even if everything's back to normal.
i find it really funny, how such a small thing can turn into a big thing.
what's funnier is that, now the situation changed and i dont even effing know anything.
what happened after i left? i dont know.
if you're pissed that i left without telling you, then im gonna laugh at you.
seriously, when you're pissed at me. tell me
because if you dont tell me, i wouldnt know what i did wrong? will i?
dont leave me guessing, because i cant guess.
whatever i did to you to make you mad, sorry.
you'll probably say "no more sorry. i tell you already, no next time."
i dont care. im still going to say sorry.
but i really dont understand.
why is it that you can say and do hurtful things to me, but i cant even joke around with you?
why is it, huh?
i really dont understand. tell me.
i think you're trying to tell me "stop talking. everything you say is shit."
i think i'll do it this time.
i wont talk unless i have to.
i dont know, i feel very... i dont know... right now.
i dont know if im sad, mad, annoyed, depressed or whatever.
sorry to the people i've ignored.
but i really dont want to talk right now.
| Thursday, February 12, 2009,12:19 AM |
i need a new hobby.
yes, apparently, someone finds it very unhealthy for me to sit in front of the computer too much.
SOOOO~ suggest hobbies? x__x
pleaseee? T__T
im banning myself from the computer =p
just like kwang, im gonna be a nerd this year!
we already decided since last year. hahaha!
im helping kwang play pet society right now. lol!
YOU KNOW WHAT?! -.-
chinese new year is over already, and chung they all didnt come to my house T__T
nooo! good thing we also invited another lion dance.
hahaha. but yeah, chung they all call me twice liaw but twice cant because my parents were busy at those time.
wah, so busy hor -.-
chung ah chung, his hand kena burnt by firecrackers because he so damn smart to take all the powder out and light it.
lol, his pants kena pull down by his friend in front of so many people lagi. HAHAHAHAHA!
eh eh! =p
i introduce you guys to a nice story
http://yu-tiann.blogspot.com/
although it's in chinese, it's damn nice, can?
lol. even a chinese hater like me reads it ;D
bah. about today, why sudden update right?
IT'S BECAUSE......
MICHELLE IS SO DAMN HIAO!
hiao zheng ah her -.- (me & kwang's new name for her!)
never never neverrrr walk infront of michelle or sit near her (especially if you're a girl)
you'll regret it! YOU WILL REGRET IT!
she very hiao de okay?
lol, and she already know what to name her daughter =p
huang qiao! xD
what the hell right? hahaha
this khew ah -.-
want me to drink vodka.
hahaha, im not a drinker, can? =p
grr! he keeps argueing with me.
lol.
lately, we keep sticking out our tongues at each other! xD
kick you ah =p
i spent most of my morning going "OMG!" over my new found fear!
and yes, it's something very stupid -.-
im afraid of a person that i dont even know.
he's very scary, can?
i dont even dare to look at his face ah -.-
im scared that he'll kill me if i look at him.
wahhh! he's so scary! T__T -said this for the billionth time today-
i'd totally die if i had to face him and talk to him -.-
-finds herself very stupid-
i feel like uploading some pictures i took xD (finally -.-)
this is sun yat sen! omg right? lol. took this at the hotel in medan
this dan bao fan almost made me cry. hey, you would too if you were alone in the foodcourt of a foreign contry! T__T (singapore)
AHHH! i loveee this! the rice is sushi rice and the fried fish is yumm x_x
AHHH! i loveee this! the rice is sushi rice and the fried fish is yumm x_x
i've got more pictures. upload them next time =p
i have to go make sushi now~ xD
i have to go make sushi now~ xD
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