| Wednesday, February 18, 2009,9:28 PM |
i think im pissing alot of people off right now because im online but dont want to chat with anyone.
but i dont really care.
because it seems that i dont have much emotions right now.
i might regret it in the future, but now i really dont know.
when i say i dont feel like chatting to you, then i just dont.
it's better to do something else than wasting your time trying to talk to me
because you wont have much of a positive response from me.
i really dont know what to do, but i really want to know.
why is life so hard?
why do other people have better lives than i do?
what did i do to deserve all this, huh?
give me a reason to accept all of this in.
i effing hate all of this.
i dont want to talk to anyone anymore.
it seems like everything i say or do will end up as something bad.
someone's mad at me, but i dont even know why.
another person is hating me because i was cold to him.
i got a good person into trouble yet i couldnt even do anything about it.
and he wont even hate me for all of this.
i really really wish i could trade lives with my other friends.
for once, i wish nothing bad would happen for just one day.
i guess im not fated to have that type of life?
i'll have to adapt to it? right?
i apologize in advance to whoever i will piss off in the near future.
i think this time, i really wont be happy for real again, even if everything's back to normal.
i find it really funny, how such a small thing can turn into a big thing.
what's funnier is that, now the situation changed and i dont even effing know anything.
what happened after i left? i dont know.
if you're pissed that i left without telling you, then im gonna laugh at you.
seriously, when you're pissed at me. tell me
because if you dont tell me, i wouldnt know what i did wrong? will i?
dont leave me guessing, because i cant guess.
whatever i did to you to make you mad, sorry.
you'll probably say "no more sorry. i tell you already, no next time."
i dont care. im still going to say sorry.
but i really dont understand.
why is it that you can say and do hurtful things to me, but i cant even joke around with you?
why is it, huh?
i really dont understand. tell me.
i think you're trying to tell me "stop talking. everything you say is shit."
i think i'll do it this time.
i wont talk unless i have to.
i dont know, i feel very... i dont know... right now.
i dont know if im sad, mad, annoyed, depressed or whatever.
sorry to the people i've ignored.
but i really dont want to talk right now.
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