13; wonderland ★

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Sunday, April 12, 2009,10:31 PM

today.

today was one of the worse days ever.
im scared of next year.
i hope this year will never end.
i dont want to go to form 4.
i dont want to lose them.
i want them by my side, protecting me.
they're the only people keeping me from being insane.
i dont think i can live without them.
no, i know i cant live without them.
why is everyday getting worse and worse?
why does everyone beside me have to leave?
i dont want them to go.
it's my selfish wish but i dont want to see them leave me.
without them, i'll fall deeper and deeper into the hell hole.
maybe to the point that i cant stand up anymore.
im lousy, i need someone to pick me up.
but after all of them leave, who will?
i NEED them.
i'll be like a fish without water when they're gone.
i need support... i need someone to push me.
but without them.... non of that. i'll get non of that.
what will happen to me then?
even with them, im already losing it now.
what about the future without them?
i thought reych and jia leaving would be painful enough, but khew too?
what can i do without his support and comfort?
without him, what will happen to me?
what will i be?
nothing. i can do nothing.
i am nothing.
i cant do anything.
i hope i can wake up from this nightmare.
life sucks.
i hate it.

my world ★

i own this wonderland

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since 6th July 2008

♣ jane, sora, wasabii or milk
♣ 12.o1
♣ likes to photoshop
♣ studying in CHMS
♣ obsessed with touching hair
♣ loves chocolate way too much
♣ listens to korean music
♣ is random, weird and crazy
♣ is nice but mean in some ways
♣ does not like to be teased
♣ likes reading fanfics & manga
♣ a lousy writer
♣ i hate DOTA with passion

my life ★

what i read & want

IRead
~~orange planet. cherry juice. love luck. beauty is the beast~~ AAA. chocolate cosmos. special a. vampire knight. love berrish. ouran high school host club. koukou debut. charisma doll. maid sama!. Saboten No Himitsu
~~WANTOHG. he was cool. high school royalty~~ Syndrome. TLH. love sucks. OHTDE. Suicide Note. TIWOSCM. yu tian. death glare (lots more but cant think of any right now)

IWants
♠ a happy life
♠ his love and undivided attention
♠ improve my drawing
♠ more plushies (i bet this will never be crossed off)
♠ study hard
~~♠ beat LSC (never gonna happen)~~ beat him in english, content :p
~~♠ everything to be normal again~~
♠ change my attitude
♠ more drawing tools
♠ stable emotions
♠ cuff earrings
♠ second piercing (left)
~~♠ a nice drawing just for me~~ hehe, thanks xt :D
♠ more clothes
♠ learn hacking
♠ DIE SWINE FLU!!! PERISH!
♠ find cappu
♠ ~~get "lone wolf"~~ \\ ~~then fugin :D~~
♠ get "dark lord"

my rules ★

histories