13; wonderland ★

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Sunday, April 12, 2009,7:14 AM

update.

i have no desire to live.
i know, i very terasa (but i think im right about some).
i dont care.
i want to hide somewhere and cry until i feel better.
i dont know.
why do i feel this way?
why do i have to care so damn much?
why do i have to keep suspecting?
as much as i love all the people who's cheering for me, routing for me, guiding me, cheering me up.
im sorry to be such a big disappointment and wasting your efforts.
an optimist. i was but no longer am.
but sadly, im not a pessimist either.
so what am i?
a loser.
a bitch.

oh, and to other people who dont know who i like but think they do.
stop trying to guess. ._.
because it isnt obvious.
even yapepe guessed wrong. and i was very surprised.

想跟我吵架我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點 Oh ~

你又在哭泣我給不了安慰
我又在搖頭有那麼點後悔
愛情的發展已難以回頭卻無法往前走

但身不由己出現在胸口兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒

等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

想跟我吵架我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點

但身不由己出現在胸口兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒

等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒

等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

i miss someone very much.
to the point, that i feel very upset.
but that's not the only reason.
it hurts inside.
i want to go back to the hiding spot and talk to her again. ):

i want a new layout.
will work on it soon.

for those who bothered to read all this shit, you're weird but thanks.

ps:
mamii should go online more.

my world ★

i own this wonderland

Believe in the power of Karma. Whatever you do shall be repaid, be it good or bad. Oh, and this is my blog, so I obviously don’t give a damn about what you think.

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since 6th July 2008

♣ jane, sora, wasabii or milk
♣ 12.o1
♣ likes to photoshop
♣ studying in CHMS
♣ obsessed with touching hair
♣ loves chocolate way too much
♣ listens to korean music
♣ is random, weird and crazy
♣ is nice but mean in some ways
♣ does not like to be teased
♣ likes reading fanfics & manga
♣ a lousy writer
♣ i hate DOTA with passion

my life ★

what i read & want

IRead
~~orange planet. cherry juice. love luck. beauty is the beast~~ AAA. chocolate cosmos. special a. vampire knight. love berrish. ouran high school host club. koukou debut. charisma doll. maid sama!. Saboten No Himitsu
~~WANTOHG. he was cool. high school royalty~~ Syndrome. TLH. love sucks. OHTDE. Suicide Note. TIWOSCM. yu tian. death glare (lots more but cant think of any right now)

IWants
♠ a happy life
♠ his love and undivided attention
♠ improve my drawing
♠ more plushies (i bet this will never be crossed off)
♠ study hard
~~♠ beat LSC (never gonna happen)~~ beat him in english, content :p
~~♠ everything to be normal again~~
♠ change my attitude
♠ more drawing tools
♠ stable emotions
♠ cuff earrings
♠ second piercing (left)
~~♠ a nice drawing just for me~~ hehe, thanks xt :D
♠ more clothes
♠ learn hacking
♠ DIE SWINE FLU!!! PERISH!
♠ find cappu
♠ ~~get "lone wolf"~~ \\ ~~then fugin :D~~
♠ get "dark lord"

my rules ★

histories