Forgotten Memories

whatever

2009-08-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

i'd be lying if i said i had nothing to say.

but i dont want to say it so suck it up.

same old, same old stuff.

(teacher po alwin: history repeats itself!)

things never change... and it never will.

i dont bother this time.

there's absolutely nothing i can do except wait.

i'll let fate or whatever do it's thing.

if it wants to fck around with MY life again, go right ahead.

it's not like i cant take it, im already used to it.

things never last, so cherish it before it's completely shattered again.

i still dont get it but all i know is that it's part of life.

life is unfair, get used to it.

sentence of the day;

No one can make you inferior without your consent.

uh?

2009-08-16T00:06:00.000-07:00

i suddenly felt like writing something.

um... criticism welcomed?

i dont think it'll be very good. haha.

what's funny is that im listening to amigo, genie & all those unsad songs while writing this. LOL

am i freaking for doing that? :p

To My Heart,

charaters & their roles

Nam Eunmi - female lead

(means grace & beauty)

Im Jaehwa - Eunmi's crush since childhood

(means respect & beauty)

Kim Sangmin - Eunmi's friend & school's "Mr. Popular"

(means aid & cleverness)

title: To My Heart,

length: unsure. probably around 5 chapters?

Seeing the sight before me, I stopped running and caught my breath. With my heavy chest heaving up and down, I watched how the little boy ran up to the little girl with his umbrella, how he grinned at her and raised the umbrella over her head, how she smiled back seeing him willing to get himself all wet for her.

Was that what we called true love? I don't think so. Being at that innocent age, everyone was so pure, just like angels. Everything seemed true when it was in fact, not. It was only a matter of time until they'll discover that. Or...maybe one of them truly loved the other... maybe he or she might turn out like me. I might seem fine on the outside, happy even, but the truth was that every part of me was slowly dying inside. That gnawing pain that seemed to be slowly dissolving my heart. Those who put on the biggest smiles like nothing's wrong are the ones that fight battles inside that no one knows about.

When I was five, I used to believe that everything I saw in movies were real, that the people who died in the movies really died. Growing up, I finally realised how naive and silly my thoughts were, how everything was just a deceiving act. Hopefully, those little kids over there might turn out different. There was still a ray of hope for them but it was God's choice whether to crush it or not.

The rain started to pour harder. It was almost as if the sky could feel my pain, maybe it was crying for me. Nah... That's impossible. Why would the sky want to cry for me? The tears that were rolling down my cheeks were left unnoticed as they merged together with the raindrops that caressed my face.

Hearing heavy, running footsteps behind me, a bubble of hope slowly appeared in my heart. Maybe he was willing to get dripping wet chasing after me because it was all a misunderstanding and doesn't want me to hate him, maybe... he does love me.

I took my time turning around, fearing that the shock or depression might be too great for me. When I got a good look at the panting figure, the bubble of hope immediately popped. The person standing before me was not Im Jaehwa, but Kim Sangmin. Nam Eunmi, you were a fool for thinking that Jaehwa would be chasing a worthless girl like you...

Dear heart, I'm sorry I let someone break you again...

Kim Sangmin POV ---x

Although the people around her didn't notice the tears strolling down her cheeks, I did. When no one had the desire to run after her, I did. Why did I? Even I'm not sure. My feet magically took control after I saw her bolt past me, I ditched my friends and started running after her. Hearing my name being shouted behind me didn't make me stop running but it only made me run faster.

It was no wonder that she was part of the school's track and field team, she ran faster than a car. Just when I was about to give up in chasing her, she stopped not far away and watched a pair of children under a blue umbrella. She suddenly decided to turn around and face me, but when she did, the hopeful look on her face was quickly replaced by a look of sorrow like she was expecting to see someone else, not me. Ouch, that somehow hurt my pride.

"Nam Eu- Eunmi shi, are you okay?" I slowly approached her and asked.

Without taking a second glance at me, she turned around and mumbled something along the lines of "leave me alone." What is with this girl and stabbing my pride? Wait, why AM I letting her kill my pride? She was like a little sister in need. She needed someone, but no one came to her aid so I think I'll be superman just for a day and help her out. I followed her as she started to walk away.

"Why are you following me?" she asked and turned around to look at me with a glare on her face. Her voice and eyes were as cold as ice, if possible, colder. Unknowingly, I took a step back.

"I'll be your superman for today." I said without a second thought.

Her glare disappeared and a confused but weird look was plastered on her face. She opened her mouth like she wanted to say something but closed it again as she laid a finger on her pursed lips. Was it because of what I said? I thought back to the line that flowed out of my mouth so smoothly seconds ago and mentally slapped myself. That was such a stupid thing to say! But it sounded so cool in my head.

Because I was freaking out in my head, I didn't notice her walk away from me. It was a while before I did and she was already sitting at the sheltered bus stop, watching me run over to her. She sighed, scooted over a little bit and patted the empty seat beside her. Just like an obedient puppy, I sat beside her and started swinging to and fro while tapping onto the plastic seat.

"Kim Sangmin, why did you bother to chase me?" she looked at me again after squeezing the water out of her hair. I loosened up a little after hearing that her tone was less hostile now.

"I told you. I'm going to be your superman today." I couldn't help but grin when an amused smirk appeared on her face instead of the weird look she gave me moments ago.

"So, why were you running away?" since she looked like she calmed down, I took this chance to ask her.

She gave me a hesitant look before she put on a thinking face and looked to the other side. It was only moments later that she turned back to me and was about to answer my question. Sadly, I couldn't hear the answer just yet because after she said "well...", a bus arrived and the bus driver started barking orders at us to stop being so slow and get on the bus or he'd drive off without us.

"F*CK OFF! No one wants to get on a stinking bus when the driver is nothing but a bi*ch! Now, drive off before I decide to get on your bus and shove a stick up your fat as*!" before I could even register what had happened, the bus entrance shut close and the bus drove off at lightning speed.

Nam Eunmi sure is scary. I hope I didn't anger her with my question just now. I don't want to die yet. Seeing me inch further away to the edge of the seat, she gave me a "look-buddy-I'm-not-going-to-kill-you" look. Although I was debating whether I should run away or not, I went back to my original seat just for the sake of cheering her up a little.

"As I was saying before that b*tch of a bus driver rudely interrupted us..." she rolled her eyes when she thought about the bus driver and continued talking.

"Do you know Im Jaehwa?" she suddenly asked me with sparkles in her eyes but they disappeared after a while and her eyes became completely dull.

"Yeah, I do. Why?" Of course I do! He was my sunbae (senior) last year before he graduated. I remember him being very quiet, he always had this bored and deadly look on his face. He might be good looking and all, but I still don't get why the girls swoon over him so much. He never talked to anyone except Nam Eunmi and no one dared to approach him too. She seemed like the only person he wasn't so cold around. I wonder what happened.

"It's because of him. You see, we were friends even since we were little kids. When I was 11 and when he was 13, he got hit by a bunch of bullies for me... after that, he learnt how to fight and gradually, he became colder and colder to everyone..." a sad smile formed and tears started to collect on the brim of her eyes. I nodded for her to continue.

"I fell in love with him after that incident. I thought he loved me back too from the way he acted. He would only smile at me, no one else. And, he would embrace me with a tight hug whenever he or I felt sad. Even after 7 years, he would still smile at and hug only me... that is, until today. When I went to his apartment just now, I saw my best friend with her arms wrapped around his neck and... he looked happy." a single tear streamed down her hot cheeks.

"Maybe he only thought of you as a friend. I mean, smiling and hugging doesn't mean you love someone as a lover..." for some reason, I decided to be straight forward. It was probably for her own good...

"No..." she said calmly. A little to calmly...

"When I was taking care of him while he was sick two months ago, I heard him say "Eunmi... I love you..." with a tear drop dripping off his face in his sleep..." it was then the single tear wasn't lonely anymore. Within a few seconds, a new set of tears started to pour out.

The world seemed to have stopped the moment she cried. Nothing seemed to be moving at that short moment, I couldn't take my eyes off the crying figure before me. Somehow, it felt like it was my fault that she cried but I know for a fact that it wasn't. The sound of the rain patting onto the plastic roof above our heads and Eunmi's muffled sobs were the only sources of noise in this now empty street.

From the corner of my eyes, I saw something sink down in the dark alley. I diverted my gaze to the sudden movement without turning my head. Clutching onto his black dress shirt, the person sat on the wet floor like he was in pain, mentally not physically. Drops of water dripped off his hair. I couldn't get a good look at his face because his bangs covered part of his right eye.

Nae moriga nomuna nappaso
no hanabakke nan morugo
darun saramun bogoitnun non
iron naemaumdo morugetji

Looking at her vibrating pocket, she stopped sobbing. I wonder how a phone could survive after she ran in the rain like that. She took out the wet phone from her drenched pocket and looked at the caller ID. Her face immediately reflected how hurt she was. She took a deep breath and her grip over the phone tightened until her arm started shaking.

noui dwaetmosubul
ponungotdo nan haengbokiya
ajik naui maumeul mollado
kkutnae suchidushi gado

"Please answer it for me and play along. Please..." she held out the phone and looked pleadingly at me. I nodded and took the phone from her.

(jane's note: sentences in green = Eunmi's best friend (Taehee) \\ normal sentences = Sangmin)

"Eunmi... I'm really sorry..."

The voice on the other line was the hurt voice of a female. I'm guessing she's the best friend Eunmi was talking about. I looked over at Eunmi and she nodded for me to answer.

"Eunmi's kind of busy now, do you want to leave a message?"

I heard a small gasp on the other line when she heard my unfamiliar male voice answer her but the gasp was quickly covered up by a fake sneeze. There was a faint male voice in the background asking her what was wrong in a very eager voice.

"Um... who are you? What's Eunmi doing with you?"

"That's none of your business. Do you want to leave a message or not? I don't have all day."

For some reason, I was getting pissed at the girl. What gave her the rights to ask me who I was after what she did to her best friend? What made her think she could question me like that? Who Eunmi was with and what she was doing wasn't any of her business anymore.

"Oh... okay... can you please tell her that I, Taehee said sorry and really want to talk to her as soon as possible?"

"Oppa ah~ are you done yet? You're such a slowpoke." Eunmi called out in a sweet voice and giggled then she continued looking at the raindrops hit the transparent roof of the bus stop.

I hung up after I heard a loud gasp coming from the other side of the line. I saved my number into her cellphone and called myself to get her number then I handed the cellphone back to her. She smiled a sad smile at me after she took it back.

"Thanks. Now Taehee probably thinks I'm with another guy. I'm sure she'll tell Jaehwa about it. Let's see what that bitc* and b*stard does about it." sighing, she stood up.

"Call me whenever you're feeling down okay? Good luck in everything." I smiled and put an arm on her shoulder, she nodded and walked away.

Now, let's see who the guy in the alley is. Walking as quietly as possible, I approached the guy sitting on the alley floor with his face in his palm. He was completely soaked in water but that didn't seem to matter to him. Whatever he had on his mind was troubling him immensely, he didn't even seem to notice me.

Something that suddenly shone caught my attention. Looking for the source of light, I quickly found out that the shine came from the ring he wore on his pinky. That silver ring... it was the exact same ring she was wearing just now... I knew who he was already.

"Hi... Jaehwa sunbae." hearing his name, he slowly removed the palm from his face and looked up.

"What do you want?" he spat out coldly and glared at me.

"I want to know why you're hurting your beloved Eunmi."

"...It was for her own good..."

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chapter 1 done.

so, Jaehwa or Sangmin? :3

happy ending or sad ending or something in between?

i know it's too long, i like long chapters so yeah.

read or not, i dont really care. haha.

maybe i'll post this on soompi.

i shall continue chapter 2 next time.

um, any spelling or grammar mistakes?

please do voice out. thanks :D

i shall consider writing what type of ending you guys want :p

(and yes, this is my plan to make all silent readers come out. MUAHAHA)

back.

2009-08-09T06:29:00.000-07:00

my computer is finally fixed. --
but im not really happy about it.
the keyboard's messed up for some reason
and it's already quite late so we'll leave the fixing of the keyboard to tomorrow.

as you guys know, im sick --
yeah. had a fever and sore throat.
the fever already died down.
but unfortunately, the sore throat still remains.
thanks to all those who CARED about me. :)

some people are such HYPOCRITES.
fyi. plastic container hurt.
you kids out there, just because your parents refuse to let you buy something or what ever small shit, then you think they're kns or what, suck it up, like seriously.
they dont hit you then good liao lo --

i would LOVE to blog more.
but im very tulan right now.
knn. --

sentence of the day:
non because im too tulan to think of anything right now.

so and so

2009-08-02T01:15:00.000-07:00

he said he'd love me forever, but forever didn't last.

it didn't take long to get over it and i picked the right choice to let it end.

he said he loves me for who i am, but he keeps telling me that i'm not good enough.

i got fed up but gave him a few more chances.

in the end, it still didn't work out so i ended it.

didn't take long to get over it too.

he said he'd always be there for me to make me happy, why?

because he said he loved me and he wanted to make me happy.

but after around 3 months, he complete crushed my soul.

tell me, why haven't i gotten over it?

here's a short story.

This is what True Love is all about:

It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 a.m., when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him look at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation. I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.

I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer' s Disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him, "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said, "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is." I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life."

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updates updates.

im doing a crossover with singyee :)

cant wait to do my part.

it's a fusion between cartoonish and realisticish stuff.

shall post when we are done.

4 undecorated envelopes left.

1 for twinnie. 1 for ling. 1 for ej. 1 for myself. :)

the 5 others will be given away too.

man, i need more envelopes --

sentence(s) of the day; The truth is, you can rip my heart out, throw it to the ground, then I'd pick it up and dust it off...and give it back to you.

and...

Never say goodbye if you still want to try. Never give up if you still want to go on. Never say you don't love a person if you can't let go.

credits: picture @ soompi stock thread & quotes @ soompi forums

story: funlock

day after day

2009-08-01T09:39:00.000-07:00

another pathetic day has finally passed.
it's almost 1 am now and by the time i'm done with this post, it'd probably be 1 am already.
time for yet another barely sleep-able night just to wake up to another pathetic day.
an endless cycle is the only way for me to describe this. --
tell me, why do you have to haunt me?
every time i see that teddy bear on my desk, tears threatened to spill.
i have no idea why i still keep in on my desk.
i used to smile every time i see it but now, it's the opposite.
every time i see that keychain hanging from my phone pouch, i think back about the times we used to share.
i tried to get rid of it but i didn't have the heart to do it.
when i was about to let go of it and let it fall, my heart shouted for me to stop and i became stiff.
now, that keychain hangs proudly on my phone pouch instead of my pencil case.
what a stupid idea that was.

i'm counting as the days pass by.
day by day...
how many days has it been already?
why haven't i let go?
in my heart, i carry a silly wish.
a wish that will probably never even come true...
why am i still waiting for you even when i know i'll never have you back?
why did i still have to have so much hope?
please, just cover this ray of light from reaching my heart.
i hate having hope for you... it hurts too much.
is it weird that i care much more about your future than you, yourself, do?
it is, after all, YOUR future and not mine.
why do i worry about you when you obviously don't even care about me anymore?
despite all that, i'm still going to worry.
i promised someone that i'd fix you.
and ever since then, it became one of my aims not because i promised but because i care.

being cold to me also wont make me let go.
i'm probably stupid.
that's the reason why.
when you're cold to me, instead of leaving you alone, i have the urge to talk to you more despite knowing that all i'll receive is just another stab in the heart and another painful blow in my ego.
speaking of my ego, it completely deflated because of you.
i dont know what to tell your friends too.
why am i acting like everything is okay when it's not?
all those forced smiles and laugh, i felt so fake.
why am i putting up to this because of you?
the you who isn't suppose to mean anything to me anymore.
the you who is attempting to escape from my life.
the you i desperately need.
why did you build up all my happiness just to crush it?
you told me that you'd always make me happy, so why aren't you?
i dont care... please come back...

sentence of the day;
There's always going to be that one person that no matter what he does, what he says, or how many times he hurted you, you just can`t let him go because he means that much to you...

credit: soompi for picture & quote

fanfic reviews

2009-08-01T09:31:00.000-07:00

i admit, I have been reading when I was supposed to be studying for 1st trial ]:
lol. cant blame me, the fanfics were too awesome to ignore. xD

recommended fanfictions to read on SOOMPI forums.
all of the ratings given are according to my own personal account so by all means they might not be accurate or whatsoever. you’ll have to read it yourself to find out! :D

title: Untitled
subheading: Queen of the Revolution
progress: completed. ONE-SHOT
genre: politics, romance, angst, violence (yes, no comedy at all)
jane’s rating: 9/10
jane’s review:
What actually attracted me was the fact that the one-shot was titled “Untitled”. I didn’t understand why it was titled so at first, but after I finished reading, I finally understood. There was absolutely no suitable title for that one-shot that could reflect and relate to the one-shot itself. It was amazing. I felt as if the time taken to read it was well spent and by all costs, not wasted. The writer had such a wide range of vocabulary that a lot of soompi fanfic readers could not be able to comprehend. (trust me, some readers are only into the fanfics with simple words. haha) After I finished reading, I was gawking at the screen, wondering how the hell I understood all that. (i admit, there are a few parts i didnt quite get cause i didnt take the time to try and develop it in my head xD) I loved how butterbean described the scenes and the conversations with such detail. It was such a well thought through one-shot and I’m so happy that I clicked on it. Oh, for those who are wonder why 1 point is gone, it’s because I don’t like reading gasoo-related stories. haha! But if you do and if you like Big Bang (especially TOP), you’ll probably give it a ten out of ten! (OMG! 2PM~ HAHA!) All and all, it was a freaking amazing read. I’m gonna get butterbean’s other stories in .doc format. I’ll have to PM her. LOL.

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title: Always, without a change (onsaemiro)
progress: in progress. TRANSLATED FIC
genre: comedy, a little bit of violence, shoujo (obviously contains romance. lol)
jane’s rating: 7.5/10
jane’s review:
It’s korean! What more can I say? I’m a sucker for korean stories. Best of all, NON-GASOO! As you can see from the progress, it isn’t complete yet but I still feel like reviewing it. haha. The story is quite light-hearted and so so so cute. One problem though, is that it is a little too cliché. I mean, how the hell can you just randomly meet a guy with half of your custom made couple necklace at the cinema then again the next day on a bus (THAT YOU BOARDED WRONGLY)? Then, how can he just happen to show up at your house because he was your housemate’s boyfriend’s friend? And and, worst of all, YOU DON’T EVEN FREAKING REMEMBER HIM FROM BEFORE WHEN YOU OBVIOUSLY SHOULD! I blame it all on Hawool since he’s making it so obvious that he’s hiding something he knows about the past from Miro and HG. (cause i cant spell his name right -.-) Then there’s YeoJoon, he’s such an arse. He’s forcing Miro to love him when she doesn’t. My guess about the scar and that painful memory that Miro keeps talking about is that YeoJoon tried to kill himself, which amazed me cause YeoJoon seemed so tough. – Anyways, if you take away all the cliché moments, this fanfic is great! HG is just so cute. :D

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title: Memoirs of a teenage psychopath
progress: completed. Around 30 chapters.
genre: angst, drama, romance, and more
jane’s rating: 8/10
jane’s review:

I can safely say that this story is amazing. Although it’s gasoo related, I still loved it to the max. The writer had such a captivating way of describing the scenes. I could picture all the scenes in my head and it felt like I was watching a movie. I like how the story isn’t very predictable. Normally, when you read stories, you’ll know that the female lead and the male lead end up together since the start but in this story you’ll doubt that. I also like how the writer made Im YehSol’s (female lead) life so tragic and mysterious. I don’t think I can pick out something I don’t like from this story except the fact that its gasoo related (but I love dbsk so yeah xD). The plot flows so smoothly and everything is so well written. I’m currently reading its sequel “Cloistering Marionette” and let me tell you that the quality of the story still remains and I’m glad of that! <3 And, new characters were introduced in the sequel! READ IT!

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that's all for reviews! :D

boom boom bang!

2009-07-27T02:35:00.000-07:00

my reading section has been cut short.

and now, my 1 month worth of stuff to read will have to be finished in 3 days! T__T

why?

cause im going back to tuition for full subjects!

poo man! no freedom anymore!

what has the world become?! T__T

anyways, here's something i found on soompi! xD

and yes, im advertising soompi!

COME ON PEOPLE! GO REGISTER!

BOY : May I hold your hand?
GIRL : No thanks, it isn't heavy.

GIRL : Say you love me! Say you love me!
BOY : You love me...

GIRL : If we become engaged will you give me a ring??
BOY : Sure, what's your phone number??

GIRL : I think the poorest people are the happiest.
BOY : Then marry me and we'll be the happiest couple

GIRL : Darling, I want to dance like this forever.
BOY : Don't you ever want to improve??

BOY : I love you and I could die for you!
GIRL : How soon??

BOY : I would go to the end of the world for you!
GIRL : Yes, but would you stay there??

SHARON : Have you ever had a hot passionate, burning kiss??
TRACY : I did once. He'd forgotten to take the cigarette out of his mouth.

MAN : You remind me of the sea.
WOMAN : Because I'm wild, romantic and exciting?
MAN : NO, because you make me sick.

WIFE : You tell a man something, it goes in one ear and comes out of the other.
HUSBAND : You tell a woman something: It goes in both ears and comes out of the mouth.

MARY : John says I'm pretty. Andy says I'm ugly.What do u think,
Peter?
PETER : A bit of both. I think you're pretty ugly.

1) Girlfriend : '...And are you sure you love me and no one else ?'
Boyfriend : 'Dead Sure! I checked the whole list again yesterday'.

2) Teacher : 'Which is more important to us, the sun or the moon?'
Pupil : 'The moon'.
Teacher : 'Why?'
Pupil : 'The moon gives us light at night when we need it but the sun gives us light only in the day time when we don't need it'.

3) Teacher : 'What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?'
Pupil : 'A teacher'.

4) Waiter : 'Would you like your coffee black?'
Customer : 'What other colors do you have?'

5) My father is so old that when he was in school, history was called current affairs.

6) Teacher : 'Sam, you talk a lot !'
Sam : 'It's a family tradition'.
Teacher : 'What do you mean?'
Sam : 'Sir, my grandpa was a street hawker, my father is a teacher'.
Teacher : 'What about your mother?'
Sam : 'She's a woman'.

7) Tom : 'How should I convey the news to my father that I've failed?'
David: 'You just send a telegram: Result declared, past year's performance repeated'.

8) Teacher : 'Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him, what virtue would I be showing?'
Student : 'Brotherly love'.

9) Teacher : 'Now, Sam, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating?'
Sam : 'No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook'.

10) Patient : 'What are the chances of my recovering doctor?'
Doctor : 'One hundred percent. Medical records show that nine out of ten people die of the disease you have. Yours is the tenth case I've treated. The others all died'.

11) Teacher : ' Can anybody give an example of COINCIDENCE?'
One Student : 'Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day and at the same time.'

12) Teacher : ' George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it.
Now do you know why his father didn't punish him ?'
One Student: ' Because George still had the axe in is hand.'

above credits to Shia @ soompi forums

rofl! i love the last one and the sea one xD

i just noticed that i havent been stock hunting lately o_o

cant blame me. too busy reading.

i finished Memoirs Of A Teenage Psychopath yesterday and now im reading Cloistering Marionette. haha.

finished in 2 days while studying :p

i admit, i slacked off with my studying xD

i might do a fanfic review for the next post! yay!

maybe you'll be interested in reading the stories after my review :p

just ask me for the story link if you're interested.

but you have to sign up for soompi first.

i MIGHT borrow my account hahaha.

danbo picture: cake@june @ soompi forums & owner @ flickr

sentence of the day;

love is a nonsensical thing that only leaves scars.

im okay!

2009-07-26T05:05:00.000-07:00

im okay! @_@

dont worry guys.

im fine.

thanks guys, for providing all forms of comfort. :)

your amazingness shall not be left unforgotten!

i would especially like to thank c & m for being there when i needed someone.

seriously, haha, you'd think that you wont be able to find people to talk to at 1am in the morning --

i know for a fact that i worried some of you shitless but but but!

like chunee said, jane can still smile when all that shit happens to her!

i shall smile for all you loser out there! cause i love you all!

i dont think i'll be able to live without you bunch of losers who always seem to find a way to make me laugh.

im gonna say it again.

wait for ittt~

wait for it!

I LOVE YOU LOSERS!! (miss pancakes might be cool but i consider her as a loser to! SO HA!)

let me hug you all and squish you all to death! T__T

apparently, someone thinks im crazy cause i'm laughing at this moment in time.

meanie meanie! -points-

jane is... tearless! MUAHAHA.

btw, im still scared of the dark. --

sleeping by myself is scary T_T

SCARY I TELL YOU SCARY!

ESPECIALLY DURING THAT MORNING I WAS STUDYING MY SCIENCE~

i shall be forever scarred with that horrible, horrible morning! NOOO!

ps: if i didnt tell you guys what happened between me and sg.

it probably means id be over emotional around you and start bawling out like a big giant baby in front of you.

and so to prevent that from happening, you shall find out through someone else :D

sentence of the day:

happy endings are just stories that haven't ended yet.

edit xx

OMFG! THE MIND BLOWING PAIN OF GEOGRAPHY!!!! -stabs geography textbooks- die you evil tooot --

i am a banana, be afraid!

bye.

2009-07-22T08:21:00.000-07:00

Suppose, let’s say, that you loved a boy.
Then suppose that this boy became your everything.
But what is love without its conflicts and insecurities?
What is love without pain and fear?
What if… he betrayed you?
Do you pick up the pieces and keep on loving him?
Or perhaps you’d settle for the second best?
Would you put happiness at the expense of a love that comes only once?
Or would you put love at the expense of a moment of happiness after the pursuit of a lifetime?
Where do you draw the line?
Suppose… let’s say…
that you loved a boy.

- prologue of pursuit of happiness by randomstar @ soompi

what's this throbbing pain in my heart?

it feels like it broke into millions of small pieces.

someone... please patch it up?

im fighting the urge to break down and cry.

i promised someone, that i wont cry anymore.

im sorry... but i broke my promise.

i'll try harder to keep it.

wait for me.

i feel so stupid... and i regret so so much.

supposedly, this is fate.

i hope... that fate will grant my wish.

i hope... that i'll be able to be by your side again.

i feel like a fool.

i am a fool.

a fool who didnt think twice.

a fool who made you feel upset.

a fool you no longer want.

a fool who cant let go.

niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
honja dasi tto crying for you
honja dasi tto missing for you.
Baby, I love you. I’m waiting for you.

let's say... that i love you.

"Take out all of the tears that are filled up inside your heart."

surprise me, say something smart.

2009-07-14T04:38:00.000-07:00

whenever i see poop, i remember you.

you know what?

i dont like you. :)

very very very.

why?

because, you disgust me.

you're obviously not worth the trouble of me blogging about you.

but guess what?

im bored and i decided to use blogging about you and your pathetic existence to ease my boredom.

you must feel shio happy that im actually wasting my time to blog about useless, old you.

an undeniable fact about you is that you're a total whoretard.

when people do actually say good things about you (which is like, really seldom), i feel the strong need to contradict their statements and what not.

you're acts of maibin-ness are so low that you cant even compare to a dog.

my wonderful, wonderful NOT friend, please just gtfo of my life before i decide to do something about you.

you're like a freaking parasite.

and i, for one, detest parasites to the pits of hell.

especially the ones like you.

dont know who im talking about, then it's probably not you. :)

know who im talking about, then it's probably not you either.

i did a quiz i found on aileen's blog. hehes~ :D

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

my results were so true to the max man! :/

and and! so was chunee's!

we both have some same results too.

which was like, so awesome. LOL xD

randomness;

i love you, kyu!! :D

picture credit: nina @ flickr

sentences of the day;

- oh? i think you mistaken me for someone who actually gives a damn.

- hey, the zoo called, they want their baboon butts back so you need a new face :D

let the rain fall on me

2009-07-13T02:41:00.000-07:00

there are times, where i can feel your coldness.

but i know there's nothing i can do.

people said that it hurts to say goodbye.

but we didnt feel the pain.

because in our minds, we told ourselves that it was the way things turn out to be.

cheel nyeoneul mannatjyo.

- 7 years of love.

magnae kyu is so hot!

i love love love his voice.

it's so clear and serene.

when i first heard this song, my heart felt so sour.

i can feel the sadness of the song.

my heart still feels so sad when i hear this song.

i love sentimental songs like this.

those that can sucessfully grab my heart.

im collecting pictures of people right now.

care to give me yours? :)

i love kangin and donghae's current hair.

they look so good in their "eat the stars" photoshoot.

of course kyuhyun and sungmin look super good too.

i love magnae, he's so cute!

but his voice is so captivating!

it's just so amazing. -loves-

sentence of the day:

hold tight baby, timeless.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BYUL UNNI!

imma give you your present when i see you on!

colour quiz.

2009-07-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

www.colorquiz.com

Your Existing Situation
Constantly moving forward in her life and career in order to gain a higher position and more recognition. Unhappy with current circumstances and needs to constantly make changes to herself in order to become a better person.

Your Stress Sources
"Feeling trapped in a unpleasant situation and feels powerless to fix it. Upset and irritated because she feels doubtful she will ever be able to achieve her goals. Feeling frustrated and emotionally drained, and longs to escape. Needs to get away and have the freedom to make her own decisions. "

Your Restrained Characteristics
Emotionally distant even from those closest to her.
He is being forced to be happiness and pleasure on hold for new due to her limiting circumstances.
"Feels she is carrying more than her share of problems. she is flexible and laid back, sticking to her goals and working to overcome any difficulty."
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
"Not a team player and is unwilling to be involved in most activities. In the past she was over involved and now emotionally drained. Due to her fear of over involvement, she now chooses to remain uninvolved with the activities around her. "

Your Actual Problem
"Feeling a lack of energy, she does not wish to be involved in further activity or give in to demands. she is feeling powerless causing her stress, agitation, and irritation, all which she tries to escape by refusing to participate altogether. she is determined to get her own way in the end and is cautious as she puts her plan in action."

Your Actual Problem #2
Must protect herself from outside influences or she risks losing her independence and having restrictions placed on her. she wishes to be left alone.

jane's comment;;

try it?
quite true i guess.

sentence of the day:
you're like a broken record on constant playback.

kapoooww

2009-07-04T03:36:00.000-07:00

im working on a layout for twinnie right now :)

huhu, im such a slow worker --

roses, wings and blue sky.

this will be a new challenge for me.

and i love art challenges :D -giggles-

im pondering...

people who know me know im not a 1994-er.

yes, im suppose to be in form 2 this year.

but i skipped a grade.

skipping a grade has many advantages i guess.

but now im wondering, it is worth it or not.

what would life be like if i were in form 2?

things would be different, that's for sure.

maybe the grass is greener on the other side?

sadly, there's a wall between here and there.

i'll probably never see for myself.

anyways, i cuss at my current layout.

wonderland ★

why? because im sleep-deprived because of it .__.

i started working on it yesterday from 9.30 pm till 1.25 am. (doesn't include the time finding pictures)

sentence of the day;

the ending is just around the bend, i wanna pause this game.

^ anyone know where this is from? :p

new layout

2009-07-03T09:53:00.000-07:00

the code was half done so i tried to finish it.

but meh, took me 2 hours for fixing and photoshopping but im still not done. --

the header has problems so im coming back to fix it soon. haha.

edits --x

IM FINALLY DONE WITH THE WHOLE THING! T__T

rate in cbox. ?/10 please :D

-inhales- -exhales-

2009-07-03T04:46:00.001-07:00

im still alive, if that's what you're wondering.

im just aching. physically and mentally.

ive been on a sport frenzy lately.

skipping rope, kicks, badminton and basketball.

and im still not satisfied by my art. --

working on the smaller details with colour pencils now.

i think the wholeee thing will take around 24 hours?

first time im using so much time for art.

but guess what?

im satisfied with it.

the only reason why im working so hard is because my mom said my artworks are like... primary standard and that she can do soooo much better in less time.

yeah. im gonna show her. :)

anyways, ive been playing badminton with jia jia for the past few days.

no stress playing with him cause he keeps laughing which actually tires me out more since i'll laugh along. --

as for basketball, my brother made it his job to teach me.

his excuse : i feel so ashamed that your team got chao 0 in your previous game.

i didnt get a chance to shoot, did i? ):

oh wells. benefits me anyways.

but my ankle is still injured from last time.

strangely, playing basketball and badminton made it feel better.

i can hardly feel it now.

im so tired but i cant sleep.

i toss and turn in bed, unable to fall asleep.

because of my guilty concience.

baby, mianhae... saranghae...

i hope you'll forgive me.

i wont be talking much in msn for these few days.

i hope you guys dont mind.

thanks to the people who are constantly cheering me up.

you guys rock. :)

sentence of the day:

im like a fish out of water without you by my side, i need you.

lalalala~

2009-06-29T06:31:00.000-07:00

finally! lonewolf achieved! :)

im so happy but my fingers hurt.

lalalala~ tan wu jia sucks! HAHAHA

but i still love my cute cute nephew~

now youre probably asking, why so happy?

cannot mehh? hahaha.

i read a lot last night so yea, im happy :p

“If I never met you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”

i found that sentence in someone's siggy in soompi!

omg. love at first sight tu! HAHAHA

anyways, no school?

im still confused --

people who went to school today, tell me!

(i know you guys are reading! D:)

caught you people red handed! HAHAHA

+.....+ says:

too rough le

+.....+ says:

stfu

+.....+ says:

tis word

^ HAHAHA~ who say one ah? :p

first time see my blog de orang.

LING! I DONT WANT TO THINK IT MYSELF! T__T

just freaking tell me NO existence girl ]:

-sniff sniff-

ling so jahat T__T

make me hyper then become so mysterious lagi.

kill you ah x: huhu~

sentence of the day:

this ah...think it , yourself .

^thank you ling. :p

so and so...

2009-06-28T01:37:00.000-07:00

happy 2nd anniversary freddie.

i cant believe that it has been 2 years. it felt like it was only yesterday that i was bugging you while you just smiled at me. you were always kind and always cute. we all loved you dearly. you were an angel sent from above. maybe that why you had to leave us so early? because heaven needed you back? i cant help but wonder where you are right now. were you sent down to earth again to bring happiness to other people? our time with you was very short but we all appreciated it. i just wish i could have told you in person how much you meant to me. but i guess we all have our regrets? freddie, i hope youre having a wonderful time wherever you are right now. may our blessings always be with you. i hope we can meet again in our next life. i hope i'll remember you if i get to meet you next time. if i do, i'll tell you how darn much you mean to me. peace.

when the last petal falls, justice shall prevail and all shall be final.

i hope you prepared yourself, you're gonna go on a loooong trip, devil.

may the time of justice come soon and let the world be rid of evilness like yours.

i am obviously not in the candy candy happy type of mood so dont provoke me.

am working to get lone wolf to keep my mind off things.

just 3 more ranks away and lone wolf here i come.

edit----xx

Whatever that feeling is inside of you is yours, like your own invention.
Once you start to inform others about it, it’ll be like a drug. You’ll depend on
them to get your back every time when something’s up.
They listen to you and help you lift a burden or two.
Whenever they end up not standing there with arms wide open waiting for you
like they used to, that’s going to be your downfall…

quoted from Chased by cassiopeia_05

sentence of the day (all those random sentences at the ending of previous posts were sentences of the day too):

hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell.

sigh.

2009-06-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

what's happening?

what's wrong?

why did it become like this...?

when did it become like this?

sighs.

screw you life.

wonder girls - nobody english version

You know i still LOVE you baby,
And it will never change

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to push me away?
you know that I hate it,
you ignore what im saying
Why are you trying to send me to other?
You push me away like a little
each day why?

Saying that this is for my own good
Saying that you are just not worth it
Please, stop it right now coz'
you know me enough that i will come back to you no matter what!

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

All the pushing won't change my feelings
I am happy to have you,
more than willing to please you
i'm begging you please
don't walk away from me
Coz' i can't be happy away
from your side

Saying that this is for my own good
Saying that you are just not worth it
Please, stop it right now coz'
you know me enough that i will come back to you no matter what!

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody, body
I don't want nobody, body
Life is unperfect without seeing you
I cannot have anyone but you... ahhh

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Rap:
BacK to the days when we were
so young and wild and free
Everything we had back then
was like a dream
If only i could turn back time
Why do you keep on pushing me away?
why do you push me away?
I don't want nobody, nobody,
nobody. nobody but you

lyrics credit ; JeAnnEhriel @ youtube

picture credit ; xHerlyn @ soompi stock thread

i want you and only you...

die die! ahh!

2009-06-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

i spent a good 4 hours on my art homework just now.

just the outlines. OUTLINES. no colour yet.

goshhhh! T____T

im gonna die from all that immense concentration soon.

i got a headache just now --

but but, i drew a lot of weird stuff in there. HAHA

like CANDY MOUNTAIN and and domokun! huhu.

and there's also a roti canai stall and wonderland themepark :p

lalalala~ i wonder how long im gonna use up colouring the damn thing.

i already regret drawing small things.

i'll have to use colour pencils for those small small details --

lol, i wonder where ling is today o__o

someone used her account and chatted with me --

it was very very kek -- huhu.

anyways, get well soon chok! :D

Blue - Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

you're something beautiful, a contradiction.

sad, sad truth.

2009-06-24T04:51:00.000-07:00

im bored.

or maybe im just trying to be bored.

anyways, im here to vent out my rage that had previously been bottled up.

imagine a bottle of sprite (or any other soft drink with gas that you prefer).

then, imagine it being shaken violently many many times.

now, someone decides to pop the cap open.

what's the result? a sugary fountain of said drink.

(lol, this made me think of ling. made me smile. love you babe xD)

let the sprite be subsituted by rage.

and so, you get a rage fountain.

that is exactly how i feel.

(i am starting to confuse myself at this point)

my happy mood's on/off button is broken.

or maybe it's just tainted by your evil goo of ickyness. (sounding childish now --)

you make me feel so... i cant find a word.

but please bear in mind that the word above would not be a very nice word.

i was not born to this world to be your lowly servant therefore i do not live to satisfy you.

he who shits most IS shit. so what do you have to say for yourself?

please dont talk to me about being good, kind and what not, because you obviously have no rights to do so.

the fiery pit of despair known as hell is waiting for your arrival :)

you probably will have fun there since you're the devil after all.

knowing that anything can happen anytime gives me such a sense of elation that i would probably puke joy and candy. :D

may the devil be punished by karma for all his "wonderful" doings.

genies may grant you wishes but you will always end up regreting for what you wish for.

you're somewhat like a genie, doing good things but with a twist that's invisible at first but shows later on.

everyone wants to be happy, no one wants to be sad,

but if there's no rain, there will be no rainbow.

- by cheeng laopo (mildly edited by jane)

when i see you, my heart stops beating and my mind just starts to soar. ♥

edits;

karma has dictated that posting this post is wrong!

please dont ask me who this person is or i'll probably get more bad karma.

i mean it, seriously. dont ask me --

BBQ! YEAHHHH!

2009-06-22T04:49:00.000-07:00

20th June 2009, Saturday.

was like, the best day of the whole freaking month!

why, you ask?

cause we had a bbq, yeah! be jealous man!
4.30 departed from house to bee hua.

picked chea ying and her fishballs up there.

lol. for some reason, we talked about my pants in the car. HAHA.

and a lot of other random stuffs too.

reached kwang's house at around 4.45?

then nong came and we waited for the others.

first thing we did, was to try and set up the bbq thing thing.

me and kwang's hands were really black. mostly hers. HAHA

she took a handful at a time while i just took one small piece at a time xD

after that, me and nong swing. huhu.

when almost everyone came, we started eating.

after that, BALOOON FIGHT! HUHUHU!

bien came late, but she did come.

and she also got to play water balloon with us.

it was fun. super fun haha.

michelle was wettest xD

then we went upstairs and played with those mini car things

we even made a freaking "drama" HAHAHA

it was epic. EPIC. LOL

we took a hella lot of pictures.

and jia yih keeps eating. lol --

when we were done taking pictures and playing water wars.

we changed lu. some of us. haha.

some stayed wet until they went home =p

then, we sat outside on the chair swing thing and talked under the dark sky.

it was nice. and twinnie kept swinging. xD

after i went home, i could still feel the effect i had when i was swinging.

oh gosh. xD

overall, it was a super fun night.

21st June, Sunday.

went out with my parents.

i saw a very ke aii de boy. :D

dont get me wrong, i love my bf and all, but still. hahaha.

i think he's younger than me.

i caught myself thinking: wow, i wish he could be my little brother.

haha. when i heard him talk, i felt like swooning.

gosh, his voice so nice and deep --

little brothers cant have voices like that!

and btw, i love his attire.

it was so street-ish. hahaha!

damn, im not here to dedicate this spot to him --

so i shall stop here! (but i would love to have him as a didi. haha. believe me, you probably would too.)

but yeah, mr.baker's fruitcake is pretty good.

try it out. ;D -advertising for no reason-

my brother came home from thailand that night. huhu.

he bought me a lot of stuff~ -happy happy-

3 mickey mouse t-shirts, 2 mickey mouse bags, and a lot of phone pouches.

nikki jie also bought me stuff :D

i laff you both~

jia jia bought me poop. lol --

i decided to call that stuffed poop plushie MR.POOP.

i know, im not original :D

im still waiting for my cappu!

cappu, when will you show up? T__T

anyways, i got a hat.

and im very happy with it. hahaha.

my brother bought it for no particular reason.

oh oh! nikkie jie also gave me a bottle of nail polish :D

i chose the silver one

and i loveee it.

my nails are now silver. huhu.

anyways, i know this may sound somewhat pathetic

but omfg! i finally became a 1st dan in tekken! (my lili. huhu)

yeah, been playing for 2 days --

tekken dojo. cuss you!

but ya, faster than my nephew le. hahaha.

not bad hor?

i hate the super retards in the world :D

but i love my bby, laopo and twinnie. xD (i love other people too. lalala~)

and and, i just noticed that i havent seen/ talked to soyasauce, carmy and chunee in the longest time ever! T__T

joy to the world! --

such a beautiful lie. i hate it.

day out!

2009-06-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

whoots! fun day! hahaha!

we discussed about our class trip

and we finally had a conclusion!

(no thanks to the boys)

we're gonna have BBQ.

all girls, no boys. awesome le? :p

why? cause the boys suck!

they wont cooperate with us and always spoils almost everything.

therefore, we shall have our fun without them

then rub it in their faces! MUAHAHAHA!

you shall know why there is a picture of goldfishes here when you read the bottom :D

anyways, me, jia, nong and sei ying went to kiulap huaho to buy the food this afternoon

when i got home from school, i terus go take bath.

after i got out of the bathroom, my phone was vibrating.

nong was the one who called me and ask me if i can go earlier cause she was already there!

omg. so early. haha.

i ate my lunch as fast as i could and got into the car.

it was around 1 pm when i got there.

and nong was at the counter with her sister and maid paying already.

i came just in time to pei nong! huhuhu!

we went upstairs to look at... TOYS. HAHAHA

nong got hungry so we went to KFC :p

nong ate her lunch while i helped her eat french fries, cheesy wedges and my ice-cream jelly.

we talked and laughed. finish eating liao still talk there. haha.

sit there until 2 baru go back to hua ho.

when we got there, we were like... so bored --

me: -looks around then looks at ah nong-

nong: -looking around-

me: want go see fishes? :D

nong: HAHAHAHA! i want go see also le! xD

so we were at the aquarium there lu.

looking at fishes.

then when we were looking at a tank of small goldfishes, nong suddenly go EEEEE!

it turns out that there was a tapian fish (the fish that feeds off the algae and dirty stuff in fish tanks?) eating a gold fish!

i was like WTF THAT'S SO DAMN AWESOME!

nong gave me a weird look and went like "wow, you're very excited hor?"

hahaha. of course la! first time le :p

got 4 fishes kena eaten le --

all white colour one. kesian.

left the head, backbone and the tail. ewww.

AND AND! NO EYEBALLS!

me and nong saw one of the other GOLDFISHES eat them!

EWWWW! so disgusting! --

we kept looking at that tank.

then suddenly, my phone rang and we kinda scream. LOL

any problem kan? scared dao ma!

shi guan missed called me. haha.

so i go message him back :p

around 2.30, jia yih and sei ying came!

we showed them the dead fishies. lol.

after that, we went to the frozen food place :p

hehes. spent like half an hour choosing hotdogs. LOL --

my mommy and daddy came and saved the day! :D

hehes! they got like, everything in less than half an hour --

faster than us lu. pro la. dont chu seh ba mummy. HAHA

jia came home with me! hehes.

she used the PC to look at people's blog from my blog. lol.

she found evangelione and she was spazzing over the stuff she made. haha!

i showed her charlie the unicorn too. xp

hehehes. fun day! :D

and and! my brother's exams results came out!

congrats to him! he got damn awesome marks.

huhu. im gonna congratulate him when he comes back.

gonna scream in the airport?

lol. later kena taken away by air port security still got xD

oh. jia you nick koko! :p

dont always so emo bah!

emo not good le! hahas.

i love you baby =P - quote from someone. haha. hearts!

haha. boredom strikes!

2009-06-17T22:17:00.000-07:00

not really bored but i wanted to put that title.

why? cause im cool like that so be jealous. haha.

lately, mr.piggy's been going everywhere with me. LOL

tuition, school, tv and all of that. xD (cept toilet)

isnt mr.piggy super cute?

anyways! did you know that you can actually earn money by gaming? --

and all along i thought gaming seriously (pro gaming) was something stupid.

the amount of money is quite high for sitting infront of the screen and having fun.

but most of all... chung said that RAZER sponsors the 1st place winner T__T

eee! razer le! when you say razer, first thing i think of is chunee's razer lycosa mirror's life death experience on the first day it was installed.

hahaha! MILK IS EVILLL! (so is chok!)

one day, im sooo gonna get a full set of razer stuff for my computer.

not for gaming, just cause razer stuff are pretty :D

chung told me that there are currently 3 razer keyboards out.

i know there's tarantula and lycosa, does anyone know the other one? x__x

wait, i found it :p

it's arctosa. wte. it looks a lot like lycosa. xD

eee. the tarantula one is so pretty T__T

but sadly, it has no back flash thingy does it?

hahaha. can type in the dark le if got :D hehes!

now headphones.

razer piranha may be a gaming headphone

but who freaking cares? it's so pretty! --

and it has a 4.5/5 rating. omg.

haha, maybe next time i should open a company like razer? :p

for girls! HAHAHA.

yeah. imagine all the pretty other coloured stuff. haha.

nice le? :p

anyways, BCG coming up soon?

and someone told me that shi guan maybe playing? haha.

must go watch i guess :p

so support shi guan and koko! muahahaha!

who want to go? lol.

update ---xx

i heard something from someone and now i know why.

stay calm, jane. just ignore it all. not worth the time.

one day, im seriously gonna snap at you.

please dont blame me when i actually do.

you had it coming.

^ no one can comment or ask me about this or im gonna murder you --

anyways, ROYAL PIRATES. hehes :D

they were invited to star in StarKing but they rejected! D:

too bad. but there are some record companies who want to meet them

so yay! good luck guys! :D

picture credit: soompi stock picture thread

titleless.

2009-06-17T03:31:00.000-07:00

how could you be so heartless?

nevermind, you, i still love.

i talked to your cousin just now.

he was panicky.

maybe... he was scared?

i dont know.

currently, i am addicted to ROCK LEGEND.

hahaha! nice. :p

im leveling up really fast. YAYS! :D

lalala. i love that song. huhuhu.

kris allen's version :p

and today was okay okay amount of fun i guess?

meh, lol. michelle wasnt on jai ho crack today.

which was good.

i can fly! :D

i still hate the two gay unicorns in charlie the unicorn.

btw, charlie is smokin HOT ;D

hehehes!

i want to see you so badly! ):

please please please come to school tomorrow? please?

i promise i'll be good if you show up ):

love like coffee

2009-06-16T01:28:00.000-07:00

love you? hate you?

i dont know anymore, do you?

maybe... is it a mixture of both?

is it even possible?

love me? hate me?

would you care to tell me?

is this your way of torturing me?

you're just like coffee.

a bittersweet delight, filled with flavour.

on the first sip, coffee tastes bitter.

then slowly, as you get used to the taste, it becomes sweeter and sweeter.

but when you get to the last few drops, it'll taste bitter again.

or maybe if you didnt stir right, it'll taste sweet from the confectionary you added.

tell me, will i be able to taste the bitterness or sweetness?

did i stir too much? did all of it melt away?

so far, you're the best cup of coffee i ever had.

i'll gladly trade anything away for another cup of you.

coffee keeps people awake, so do you.

i dont remember how many nights i slept late, waiting for you.

just the very thought of being able to keep you company or talking to you keeps me wide awake, anticipating every minute im going to be able to spend with you.

i used to wake up every morning, thinking that today will be a great day.

but now, i wake up scared that you'll leave me today.

i go to sleep fearing that you wont be by my side anymore the next day.

; Evanescene - Bring me to life

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

i never want to wake up from this dream.

i want to be in your embrace forever.

are you willing to let me do that?

always & forever, no matter what happens, i ♥ you.

picture credit: soompi stock thread

mehh.

2009-06-14T21:42:00.000-07:00

okay. tell you what.

i am not your dog.

so please stop treating me like i am, because i, obviously, am not.

dont treat me like shit.

because you obviously do not deserve to.

please, stop trying to use me for your personal pleasure.

and stop trying to blame people for the shit you do when it's obvious that they have nothing to do with it.

it's true that i was probably blinded by stupidity when i helped you countless times, thinking that you would change for the better.

no, im not pissed.

im just very disappointed with you.

if you think im talking about you, just ask me. i will give you an honest yes or no answer.

it's probably because im tired today so im just easily disturbed or it's probably because im sick of you. no idea.

anyways! i brought pancakes to school today :p

muahahaha. those who ate it, okay ma?

haha. first time making those mini sized pancakes with chocolate chip.

i am still addicted to this song. lol.

my pet society finally worked! homagadd! yay! LOL

im sleepy, seriously.

hahaha. i have tuition later.

i miss my ice-cream. you know, vanilla flavoured one? --

i need ice-cream.

lol, i finally made my chair higher so my hand doesnt really hurt when im using the laptop.

my brother went to thailand! omg. D:

i want to go too! shopping! x__x

i hope he buys me something. hahaha.

unni is showing me pretty disney mobile phones. rawrrr! EVILLL

haha. im quite bored. LOL

meh, please have a fair fight bk and nick. :p

if not, i'll kick your arse. haha.

i love my twinnie :p hehe.

I WANT TO MAKE MORE FOOD! -explodes-

apparently, people think my display picture is of a bunny puking --

it's not, okay?!

it's a bunny shooting out a beam of loveee! i think. LOL

i have tuition later. haha!

by the way kwangy, maybe next post i will post the pictures we took. HAHA xD

but im lazy! SAVE ME SUPERWOMAN D:

OH! BUNNYTOWN BUNNIES ARE ACTUAL PUPPETS. LIKE WTF! I WANT A DAMN PUPPET!!

OMFG! SEEE!

bah, bye bye! :P

you gotta be my man, baby i want your love.

LOL. weird day.

2009-06-14T05:19:00.000-07:00

haha. i have no idea why, but today, i keep watching really random and stupid things. xD

BUNNYTOWN ;some show in playhouse disney

for some reason, while i was switching channels, this show caught my attention.

i mean, would you stop pressing the next button to watch some insane bunny drive a picnic basket?

I KNOW RIGHT? LOL

meh, i have to admit, the bunnies are really really cute. haha!

they only have one bulky tooth :p

and the whole show is pretty much insane and random.

yeah, a disco ball flower. then super bunny driving a picnic basket to chase little bad bunny.

but who cares if it's cute? :D

CHARLIE THE UNICORN ;some videos in youtube

calvin made me watch episode 1 last time.

episode one really pissed me off.

charlieeee~ we're going to candy mountain! candy mountain! charlie!

lmao. stupid gay unicorns. xD

and just now, i decided to watch episode 2.

charlie! we have to return the amulet to the banana king!

stupid song. stick a banana in your ear. LMAO WTF? xD

very stupid video. lol. it's funny though.

but i hate those two gay unicorns.

no idea if they're guys or girls. it's total wtf. haha!

then yeah, im watching episode 3 now :p

oh no listen! the umu has awoken!!

hahaha, and there's what bleh bleh bleh xD

LOL. ring ring? hello? ring ring? hellooo?

haha, poor charlie xD

always have to put up with those idiots.

the door part really got me cracking up. lol --

hahaha. wtf. the song for episode 3 is epic crack.

especially the freaky obsessed star fish! xD

haha. poor charlie. first his kidney in episode one. and now this.

all for the freaking snowman! LOL

Davichi - My Man

You've got to be my man
Baby, I want your love
You, come to me
Oh, yeah yeah yeah
I got you, not a friend
Gonna be you, be fine
It's you that I want, My Love

I thought that we wouldn't be fit,
I thought that you really had no manners
You were so 'all that', you held on too long
I don't know, I don't know,
Only your heart.

It's a little, but I get curious, get curious
Where did the confidence come from?
I try hard to understand, but I can't
I get obsessed, without me knowing.

(Chorus)

It's weird, I've become so strange
My heart goes back and forth like a pendolum
Should I give you my attention? Or should I hold back?
Should I wait until you approach me?

(Chorus)

Can I love you?
Can I have you?
Is that alright?

Oh Oh, love is funny
Oh, I guess I'm funny, funny
Oh Oh, love is funny
Oh, I like you honey
I don't want to do easy, easy love
But you keep coming deeper, deeper
You come into my heart so well,
You don't want to get out. What do I do with me?

you got to be my man, baby i want your love,

haha, nice. xD

oh i like you honey~ :p

URGGG!

2009-06-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday, my internet died --
it was total wtf man.
one day, im gonna call the internet people and complain to them about it!
you guys get paid so do your job right! RAWR! --
so yeah, it wasnt that bad of a day...
i spent the afternoon SLEEPING. hahaha!
good sleep :D
and after i woke up, terus go play Call Of Duty 4 :p
muahaha, jia jia ah, you see, yi yi so pro kaliah!
you think i very laoya, but i finished by myself what you couldnt! MUAHAHA.
jia jia wanted to play after me, so yeah, being the good aunty that i am, i let him play.
then i played tekken. LOL my new favourite character would be lily i guess.
since i practiced using her yesterday and she was totally awesome!
pwnful wins more than 10 times in a row!

anyways...
for people who were wondering why i was so upset...
(i think even yap knew i was upset. cause he lent me his calculator without saying anything or without hesitating)

i seriously have no fcking idea what to do!
chung made me really scared and paranoid about HIM...
ko ko (not real koko la) also said that HE might and that i shouldnt trust HIM too much, for my own good.
i dont think i can go on like this anymore...
it's going nowhere...
i love him... a little too much, i admit.
i trust him a lot, i hope he doesnt throw my trust down the drain...
i want to believe in him, always and forever.
but it's quite hard...
it's probably not his fault...
it's just that im too paranoid. -sighs-
if you really loved someone...
would you continue putting on that mask of happiness just for him and pretend that everything's alright or would you confront him and tell him how you feel?
what do you guys think? ahh... reply in chatbox.
i want to love and be loved.
i want to know im loved by you no matter what happens.
you... please... let me know that before my heart shatters into pieces...
i love you... i dont think i can live without you.
i miss you... i want to see you and for you to tell me that you love me.
why is happiness so hard to obtain and even harder to keep?
one moment, you feel like you're on top of the world.
the next, you're falling from that place...
what should i dooooo???

END OF WHATEVER YOU FEEL LIKE CALLING THAT THING ABOVE.

ko, you very kiong de.
so dont worry and dont be sad.
you will find that special person soon...
you just have to be patient...
dont rush things.
mei always here to support you! :p

Travis Garland - Dead and Gone

im not the same person i used to be
im moving on, its just me
do you remember when you told me that
i'd never be good enough for anyone
and i wasnt worth your time, your energy
and why did i listen then
why didnt i stand up for myself
you made me believe
i was on the road to no where to no where

and oh i was listening for way too long
i shouldve known im way too strong
to let you just lead me on lead me on

and oh i was traveling on that road too long
just tryna find my way back home
but the old me is dead and gone dead and gone

i been thinking about all that we've been through
every place that you and me went to
thinking back simple little memories
thinking bout the times that my heart felt empty
wait..that was all the time cause we just weren't fine we faked it
a true friend would stab you in the front so tell me why my back is aching
you cant say you just choked
hanging theres your rope
tangled to fall better road for you
hooked up and you got beat at your game
burn every bridge but you still see the smoke
try to get across but you sank every boat
you could smoke everyday of your life
but you know on the mic ima be more dope

and oh i was listening for way too long
i shouldve known im way too strong
to let you just lead me on lead me on

so you could love me for who i am
or hate me for who you think i am
but the old me is dead and gone
im moving on now

oh old me is dead and gone dead and gone
oh ooh whoa.

im in love with this song.

end of post. loves! bye bye! :D

ps: HI TWINNIE!! I LOVE YOU! xp

sorry sorry!

2009-06-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

OMFG! I SO DAMN HAPPY!
my sorry sorry album has finally arrived! MUAHAHA.
(okay, maybe not finally la. i asked for it yesterday and i got it already today. BRAND NEW!)
WHOOTS! I JUST HADDD TO BLOG! IM SO HAPPY! T___T
hahaha. i love my cousin. LOVE LOVE LOVEEE her to bits!
it came with a poster. :D
a very long poster i might add. xD
it's so pretty. i want to hug it!
but im afraid to damage it.
but but but. the poster side is slightly damaged already. NUUZ! T__T
not my fault, seriously. it alang like that de. hais.
but nvm. i finally got the album! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!
i shall listen to it all day and piss my mummy off! HAHAHA! xD

got pictures. :p
shall upload when i am not lazy. haha.

we're losers & we lovee it. HAHA!

2009-06-08T02:33:00.000-07:00

currently listening to Amigo & Diva. LOL. nice le, one word names! i like. :p

funfair was damn fun yesterday. hahaha.
people who claimed that it was boring probably wasnt our group of friends!
i was iced. lol. damn meanies who iced me! xD
but i got my revenge. muahahaha.
i dont know why, but i love making ice balls! they're so nice, shiny and round. LOL
but outcome of making ice balls & grabbing many many handfuls of ice :
numb hand that feel very very warm instead of cold.
but like i care. PUAHAHAHA! live life the fun way even if there's a period of suffering at the back. LOL

RIP nameless chicky. ):
i wished i named you before you were trampled to death by sexy 7 by accident.
but you had a good life :D
you were loved by yapepe & sexy 7 xD

haha, some nice people waited for my car with me after the funfair.
so nice kaliah, wait with me for more than half an hour!
and i just ngam ngam met one of them. LOL.
would you be willing to keep a stranger company just because she's your friend's girlfriend?
hahaha, would you?! WOULD YOU? LOL
ko ko damn awesome :p hehe~
fishies can lemas one! can kan? i ask you. haha.

hm... basketball is supposed to be enjoyable, but right now, it has somehow been tainted.
that's just sad. D:
what's over is already over ma.
so why waste time and energy oh?
you guys only keep accusing people of stuff, but have you ever thought about what you guys did also?
we're not so wu liao, okay?
we wont really care if you guys constantly try to attack us.
you want to play, your problem. not mine. (omgosh, influenced into saying that! o__o)
seriously, hahaha. i dont care! :p
as long as you dont get in my way, i wont care either.
you want to insult, insult until you happy. lol.
you want me insult back, just say, maybe i will think about it. haha.
but yes, if you hurt my friends, im not gonna just pai pai pi and ignore it.
oh yes, hurt me, i dont care, hurt them, i will care :D
i dont care what you tell other people, how you manipulate other people, as long as you dont hurt anyone i love, im fine with it.
REAL friends will stick by you no matter what shit happens.
im not some friendless piece of shit. i dont need friends that wont support me. hehe.
lalala.
herm herm, what im trying to say is...
that may all resentment be dissolved. we have no intentions of attacking back.
so even if you try to provoke us, the most we'll do is laugh at it.
we had our fun and so did you guys. so yeah, just stop it there lu.
both sides also wrong wuad, so dont keep thinking that you guys are right.
you have to realise that at some point.
neh neh neh, or are you hating on us for some other reason?
no idea. haha. if you want, you can come talk to us or me! :p
dont just talk about us and point point le.
like that not very nice weh. lol.
now i shall waste my time on better things instead of this. LOL.

COLD HEART, BABY!
okay, it sounds nice bah. cant blame me. haha.
WEI! huai ren must be friends with huai ren one le!
no sorries, i dont friend with huai ren. xD

IM STILL ALIVE!

2009-05-30T04:31:00.000-07:00

mr. piggy went to school with me today for the first time :D
and i must say that he's very welcomed by the girls.
now i can use it to scare vk! MUAHAHAHA!
okay, just to clear things up...
my stuffed pig's name is mr. piggy NOT swine flu!! --
got someone threaten me that he's gonna cook mr. piggy in soup lagi!
EVILLL! D:
chok brought mr. wiggles to school too!
and we were running around trying to compare which mr. is better.
guess what? we just decided that jane has magic hands :D
whichever mr.toy jane holds will get voted as cuter :p HAHA!
ah tay they all bully me!
they took mr.piggy away from me! T__T
boys like to bully mr.piggy --
meanies!

ps: I PAWN CAUSE I FINALLY FINISHED MY BIRTHDAY CARD! MUAHAHA (in one day also :D)

---------------------xx

things are not the way it's supposed to be.
it should be like before, when it was US, not you and me.
through ups and downs, our views and opinions were different.
through lefts and rights, we laughed, we fought.
no matter what happened, the good times would always overcome the bad times.
i would always remember the memories of our talks and laughs.
you and i. we can change this...

TATU - Gomennasai

2009-04-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

What I thought wasn’t mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl

When I wanted to cry
I couldn’t cause I
Wasn’t allowed

Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought wasn\'t all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream
An mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege

When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

Gomeasai, for everything
Gomenasai, Gomen nasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now

Gomenasai, I let you down
Gomenasai, Gomen nasai,
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

-------------------------

sorry for everything.
sorry till the end.
just... sorry...
to all of you.

today.

2009-04-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

today was one of the worse days ever.
im scared of next year.
i hope this year will never end.
i dont want to go to form 4.
i dont want to lose them.
i want them by my side, protecting me.
they're the only people keeping me from being insane.
i dont think i can live without them.
no, i know i cant live without them.
why is everyday getting worse and worse?
why does everyone beside me have to leave?
i dont want them to go.
it's my selfish wish but i dont want to see them leave me.
without them, i'll fall deeper and deeper into the hell hole.
maybe to the point that i cant stand up anymore.
im lousy, i need someone to pick me up.
but after all of them leave, who will?
i NEED them.
i'll be like a fish without water when they're gone.
i need support... i need someone to push me.
but without them.... non of that. i'll get non of that.
what will happen to me then?
even with them, im already losing it now.
what about the future without them?
i thought reych and jia leaving would be painful enough, but khew too?
what can i do without his support and comfort?
without him, what will happen to me?
what will i be?
nothing. i can do nothing.
i am nothing.
i cant do anything.
i hope i can wake up from this nightmare.
life sucks.
i hate it.

update.

2009-04-12T07:14:00.000-07:00

i have no desire to live.
i know, i very terasa (but i think im right about some).
i dont care.
i want to hide somewhere and cry until i feel better.
i dont know.
why do i feel this way?
why do i have to care so damn much?
why do i have to keep suspecting?
as much as i love all the people who's cheering for me, routing for me, guiding me, cheering me up.
im sorry to be such a big disappointment and wasting your efforts.
an optimist. i was but no longer am.
but sadly, im not a pessimist either.
so what am i?
a loser.
a bitch.

oh, and to other people who dont know who i like but think they do.
stop trying to guess. ._.
because it isnt obvious.
even yapepe guessed wrong. and i was very surprised.

想跟我吵架我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點 Oh ~

你又在哭泣我給不了安慰
我又在搖頭有那麼點後悔
愛情的發展已難以回頭卻無法往前走

但身不由己出現在胸口兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒

等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

想跟我吵架我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點

但身不由己出現在胸口兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒

等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒

等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

i miss someone very much.
to the point, that i feel very upset.
but that's not the only reason.
it hurts inside.
i want to go back to the hiding spot and talk to her again. ):

i want a new layout.
will work on it soon.

for those who bothered to read all this shit, you're weird but thanks.

ps:
mamii should go online more.

.

2009-03-18T06:02:00.000-07:00

i hate my life now.
i hate it very very very very much.

-

2009-02-21T00:46:00.000-08:00

today my mood not very good.
cause of mood swings again.
im sorry to the people i've hurt during these mood swings
but i really cant do anything about it.
the more i try to be happy, the sadder i become.
i guess im forever cursed with mood swings.
i made a discovery.
what i suspected was right.
i cant change after all.
saying it is very easy but doing it is very hard.
i've not only been hurt, but have hurt.
i've hurt a lot of people without really knowing.
because im very simple minded like that.
i know im very vengeful. but then, try to change is already not bad le.
like f2a's motto.
it's not how much you've done but what you have done.
i fail to do that, and to make things worse, i know i cant do it.
i can only keep hurting people without knowing, i dont deserve any of my friends.
and im 100% sure they'll be better off without me in their life.
im only a burden to everyone and always make other people mad.

i need carmy a lot right now.
carmy, where are you?
if you're reading this, please go online. please.

i wish you could bring me to KL with you.
i'll miss you a lot when you're gone.

edits;;

sometimes i wish that gerald was a girl.
i'd love to hug the girl gerald.
cause he's always there to cheer me up when im crying.
my keyboard says thanks to gerald for saving it.

OMG! -dies-

2009-02-20T06:15:00.000-08:00

i just found out about something that's very very unbelievable D:
and oh, btw, im forgiven ;D
BUT YEAH. OMG -.-
i died 5 times just now when i found out.
what did i find out?
will blog about it tomorrow.
cause i have to confirm it first.
but but T__T
im scared to meet that person. so how? T__T
for the sake of finding out, i HAVE to meet him D:
curse you curiousity.
and lol
im blogging again =p
im such a hypocrite xD

btw, gift square is updating tomorrow! YAYYYY! -happy dance-

...

2009-02-19T22:34:00.000-08:00

im very annoyed and i dont know what's happening.
i currently have an emotion problem since yesterday.
scared - happy - wtf mood - pissed - worried - annoyed - happy - annoyed - confused - idc mood - emotionless.
yeah, my cycle of emotions from yesterday till right now.
i have no idea how i feel right now.
im supposed to be annoyed, but im not.
i just finished this layout.
theme : hell.
i like what i did.
too bad there's no red in this layout.
i adore red.
maybe gonna re edit again if i have the mood to.

-

2009-02-18T21:28:00.000-08:00

i might never blog here again after this update.
i think im pissing alot of people off right now because im online but dont want to chat with anyone.
but i dont really care.
because it seems that i dont have much emotions right now.
i might regret it in the future, but now i really dont know.
when i say i dont feel like chatting to you, then i just dont.
it's better to do something else than wasting your time trying to talk to me
because you wont have much of a positive response from me.

i really dont know what to do, but i really want to know.
why is life so hard?
why do other people have better lives than i do?
what did i do to deserve all this, huh?
give me a reason to accept all of this in.
i effing hate all of this.
i dont want to talk to anyone anymore.
it seems like everything i say or do will end up as something bad.
someone's mad at me, but i dont even know why.
another person is hating me because i was cold to him.
i got a good person into trouble yet i couldnt even do anything about it.
and he wont even hate me for all of this.
i really really wish i could trade lives with my other friends.
for once, i wish nothing bad would happen for just one day.
i guess im not fated to have that type of life?
i'll have to adapt to it? right?
i apologize in advance to whoever i will piss off in the near future.
i think this time, i really wont be happy for real again, even if everything's back to normal.
i find it really funny, how such a small thing can turn into a big thing.
what's funnier is that, now the situation changed and i dont even effing know anything.
what happened after i left? i dont know.
if you're pissed that i left without telling you, then im gonna laugh at you.
seriously, when you're pissed at me. tell me
because if you dont tell me, i wouldnt know what i did wrong? will i?
dont leave me guessing, because i cant guess.
whatever i did to you to make you mad, sorry.
you'll probably say "no more sorry. i tell you already, no next time."
i dont care. im still going to say sorry.
but i really dont understand.
why is it that you can say and do hurtful things to me, but i cant even joke around with you?
why is it, huh?
i really dont understand. tell me.
i think you're trying to tell me "stop talking. everything you say is shit."
i think i'll do it this time.
i wont talk unless i have to.
i dont know, i feel very... i dont know... right now.
i dont know if im sad, mad, annoyed, depressed or whatever.
sorry to the people i've ignored.
but i really dont want to talk right now.

-dies-

2009-02-12T00:19:00.001-08:00

i havent been here in a long long time x__x
i need a new hobby.
yes, apparently, someone finds it very unhealthy for me to sit in front of the computer too much.
SOOOO~ suggest hobbies? x__x
pleaseee? T__T
im banning myself from the computer =p
just like kwang, im gonna be a nerd this year!
we already decided since last year. hahaha!
im helping kwang play pet society right now. lol!

YOU KNOW WHAT?! -.-
chinese new year is over already, and chung they all didnt come to my house T__T
nooo! good thing we also invited another lion dance.
hahaha. but yeah, chung they all call me twice liaw but twice cant because my parents were busy at those time.
wah, so busy hor -.-
chung ah chung, his hand kena burnt by firecrackers because he so damn smart to take all the powder out and light it.
lol, his pants kena pull down by his friend in front of so many people lagi. HAHAHAHAHA!

eh eh! =p
i introduce you guys to a nice story
http://yu-tiann.blogspot.com/
although it's in chinese, it's damn nice, can?
lol. even a chinese hater like me reads it ;D

bah. about today, why sudden update right?
IT'S BECAUSE......
MICHELLE IS SO DAMN HIAO!
hiao zheng ah her -.- (me & kwang's new name for her!)
never never neverrrr walk infront of michelle or sit near her (especially if you're a girl)
you'll regret it! YOU WILL REGRET IT!
she very hiao de okay?
lol, and she already know what to name her daughter =p
huang qiao! xD
what the hell right? hahaha

this khew ah -.-
want me to drink vodka.
hahaha, im not a drinker, can? =p
grr! he keeps argueing with me.
lol.
lately, we keep sticking out our tongues at each other! xD
kick you ah =p

i spent most of my morning going "OMG!" over my new found fear!
and yes, it's something very stupid -.-
im afraid of a person that i dont even know.
he's very scary, can?
i dont even dare to look at his face ah -.-
im scared that he'll kill me if i look at him.
wahhh! he's so scary! T__T -said this for the billionth time today-
i'd totally die if i had to face him and talk to him -.-
-finds herself very stupid-

i feel like uploading some pictures i took xD (finally -.-)

this is sun yat sen! omg right? lol. took this at the hotel in medan

this dan bao fan almost made me cry. hey, you would too if you were alone in the foodcourt of a foreign contry! T__T (singapore)

AHHH! i loveee this! the rice is sushi rice and the fried fish is yumm x_x

i've got more pictures. upload them next time =p
i have to go make sushi now~ xD

ICE CREAM~ ICE CREAMM~

2009-01-16T22:25:00.000-08:00

lmao. i'll thank people who said happy birthday to me later. x__x hahaha~

hiding the cake was hard .__.
plus, me and kwang plan to put at guan lao shi's there, but thenn, she havent come yet T_T
my birthday was mostly unknown to most of the boys at first until reychi come in and shouted happy birthday.
then they went silent and looked at me like i was some sort of freak -.- (they probably think i am thanks to yapepe!)
and harris asked me a very stupid question! haha "eh jane, is today really your birthday?"
this lonejie ah! he so kepo!
he told reychi about the cake T__T BOOO!

during reccess, we cut cake and ate food xD
hahaha, chia ling and pei yi also got the cake~
this eric and joel ah, so greedy i tell you -.-
lol, the pictures will come during the picture post =p

WAHH! I KENA BULLIED MORE THAN USUAL ON MY BIRTHDAY T___T
how kesian is that?!
shien chung keep bullying me! T__T
lol. i gave chia hoe some of me and reych's birthday cake.
well, he ate it.
and and and -.- he kept all the chocolate.
then guess what?
during malay class, i think.
his friend come and call me to go find him.
i was like oO why?
he said i HAD to go so yeah, i told teacher that i wanted to go out and left.
then i saw alot of boys there oO
i was thinking "apakan? o__o"
and then khew said "happy birthday" rubs something on my face.
my face felt cold oO
so i touched the thing and looked at it.
and! it was chocolate! CHOCOLATE T___T
they said i pooped T___T
lol. ah tay shook hands with me and said happy birthday
hahaha, i bet i got chocolate on his hands. good for you =p

anyways, im lazy now -.-
so im just gonna thank people. ^-^

THANK YOU ^3^
(im trying to put it on order, but i'd probably mess up xD)
edmund & fred (said in advance) , calvin, gerald, jin, meghan neechan (lovefti forum unni- cause she cheated xD),reychelle, my family members (new addition, ah soh!), sie shing, shou cong, caven, harris, lonejie (lol, he even give me invisible cake ah!), lingyong, kwang (she blogged xD), mish, jia yih, soon ai, vk, sun, singyee, shiao tiing, seng ngie, ling, pei yi, most of my other classmates, khew, ah jing jie jie (wonder how she knew xD), the lovefti forumers (dalis umma, ankeh, pop, etc etc), vivien, liza, pei ling, kaylee~, EMMA, soong ying, yapepe (even if he called me a stalker), sent yee ko ko, carmy dear, marvin

i think i forgot some people. kick me if you're one of them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REYCHII~

2009-01-10T03:05:00.000-08:00

happy birthday reychhhh~ x3
-throws confetti and repeats 5 times-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLACK GUPPY KUEYTEOWW~ -doesnt know if she got it right of not, well, tried ^^-
and yes, im overly happy for you.
OHMYGEE~ you're getting a year older! you old woman! D:
happy 15th birthday~~~ @__@
-sings birthday song- HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY~ -repeats for the billionth time-
ahhh~ x__x
did i say happy birthday yet?
MUAHHAHAHAHA! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
im the first person to greet you in class! -laughs like a maniac-

im going to the mall... soon x__x
dammit T___T
jane doesnt want to gooo T___T
but im too soft hearted.
you plead me and i'll agree. haisss! T___T
-gets ready to die-
btw, ling says i have a dying issue xD
hahaha. -dies-

kjfksldflkd

2009-01-08T03:40:00.000-08:00

hahaha, i suck at doing what i say i will. -.-
i said i didnt want to talk to those boys anymore, i still talked to one.
i couldnt really ignore someone of they talk to me, right? >>
that would be rude.
aishhh..... life's hard! T___T

ahhh~ x-x

2009-01-01T23:51:00.000-08:00

why dont you blog more?! (why do all of you want me to blog? D:)
answer: cause im lazyyyyy T__T

you went to my party but you didnt blog about it?! T___T
answer: im sorryyy T___T im too lazy~

where's your vacation review?!
answer: lazyyy. x-x lol, sun yat sen. i WILL show you the picture of sun yat sen xD

kwangy: updatee baa =p! blog crap also nevermind.
answer: hahaha, sure sure xD i blog crap for you now. LOL~ jk jk x:

btw, im gonna change my layout... soon xD
how soon? idk yet x:

MUAHAHAHAHAHAH!
-muahahaha again-

new boybands!

Hit-5! AHHH HIT-5!!!
im still going lol over their name.
hit-5 = 5 handsome idol teenagers.
but it's really cute. hahaha.
their song HIT is not bad 8D
i loveee duan's YOU HAVE TO TRUST ME part.
so soooooo much!
cause cause, it's just awesome so shut up D:
his voice is *-*
duan ahh~
oh. and gao yu too 8D
carmy owns fan and we share gao yu. lol
so eff off o:
i only share with carmy and my twinnie xD (and kwang if she wants, lol)

then there's TOP COMBINE.
they're not bad also lo 8D
very korean inspired chinese boyband.
ahh~ i loveee their song. lol (-labels self a freak-)

i MIGHT do a HIT-5 picture spam.... MIGHT >>
depends on my mood. lazy or not. lol

ANYWAYS, HAPPY 2009!!
^@*&$@*
i know, im late. -.-
well, at least i greeted T___T

a few days ago, me and carmy were on epic crack xD
lol.
come with me back to mars! and and HANDCREAM. HAHAHAHAHA!
HANDCREAMMMMMM~ -continues laughing like an idiot-
not funny to you, well, you just dont get it u__u

i havent been online as much as i used to. xD
cause cause! -points at nephew- blame him D:
he made me play games with him and he claimed my computer -.- RAWR!!
call of duty 4. hahaha, playing with him is so damn annoying.
since he was still new to it, i helped him by using the mouse. xD
so yeah, i was focus and shoot + direction.
and he's in charge of the moving.
okay, here's the annoying part. -.-
let's say, you already got damn shot so if you get shot again, you die.
so we were standing behind the fence thingy.
then all of a sudden, you started moving TOWARDS the enemies.
of course you got shot to death lo -.-
hahaha, i kept on scolding him.
but he still wont listen to me. hah. then i let him play himself >>
and guess what? he died faster and got fed up xD
call of duty 4, i hate you. -.-

just now, i was playing Wii sports with my nephew xD
and rayman too x:
i want to cry! T___T
i lost in tennis to a little kid! NOOO~
i was one shot away from winning >>
bleh. shame on me.
but but, im so good at the rayman singing thing thing. muahaha~

btw, i got tagged by kwang D:
48.Tag 6 person
- jane *its a must okay, dont be lazy!*
^ see, im the first, and she thinks im lazy D: hahaha xD

o1.Do you like to talk a lot?
; um... yes? xD
2. Do you love anyone now?
; DUAN HUANG WEII~
3. Do you hate being scolded in
public?
; duhh. -.- who doesnt?
4. Do you hate school?
; no D: im so boredd~
5. Do you hate yourself?
; yes and no. lol. sometimes
6. Do you find yourself cute?
; i wish. xD
7. Do you feel like having a gf / bf
right now?
; yes! prince duan xD haha, jk jk x: no.
8. Do you smoke or drink?
; no, im a good girl ^^
9. Do you like your teachers?
; a few...
10. Do you take drugs?
; i've eaten medicine D:
11. Do you like going to the movies?
; nope. bleh.
13. Do you prefer calling? Or SMS?
; SMS~ i dont like talking into the phone. makes my ear numb (i blame mishie! D:)
14. Do you eat every morning?
; yes when i have to go to school, no in the holidays
15. Do you go online everyday?
; nope. xD
16. Do you want to cry now?
; yes, the song im listening to is so touching T__T hahaha.
17. What are you doing now?
; listening to dui bu qi wo ai ni, doing this thingy, wondering about something, trying to remember the lyrics to this song.
18. What are you thinking of now?
; huang wei. hahaha. what? it's the song xD i blame it. x:
19. What are you listening to now?
; dui bu qi wo ai ni (sadly, there's no long AND clear version of the one huang wei sang)
20. Who was the last person who sent
you a message?
; ling yong.
21. Last time you got lonely?
; idk oO
22. Last time someone made you happy?
; lol, i dont know, just now? xD
23. Are you angry at someone?
; of course not.
24. Guitar or drums?
; drums
25. Do you love the people who make
you happy?
; of course!
26. Do you believe in those people?
; haha, i guess?
27. What is your target for this year?
; be a better student and person, finish my fanfics.
28. Do you rather shop alone or with
people?
; depends...
29. Who do you hate now?
; someone... hahaha, not hate but not really happy with.
30. Who are your best friends?
; people ^^
31. Who are you missing now?
; my friends T___T haha, kwang should make me sushi for my birthday xD
32. How are you feeling now?
; tired...
33. What can you say about your ex-bf?
; haha, i dont have? xD
34. Are you single or taken?
; why should i tell you? -.-
35. If you are single, are you enjoying
it?
; yes xD
36. Do you think your ex really loved
you?
; wtf? xD
37. Message to your enemy?
; hi, i hope we'll meet again in hell ^^
38. The most important thing in a
relationship?
; trust for sure
39. Say something about alcoholism?
; you're killing yourself slowly :/
40. Any advice to a friend you know
who has a problem?
; stop thinking about negative things you butthead.
41. What can you say about "HATERS"?
; get a life. -3-
42. Name an opposite sex you like to see everyday.
; -cough cough- does huang wei and gao yu count?
43. You're inlove with that person?
; lol, i dont know.
44. Last tough question you answered?
; um... it's in my maths paper. -.- thinking about it makes me feel stupid already D:
45. What did you answer?
; a wrong answer. T__T
46. Do you have a lot of pic in your
blogger?
; HA! NOOOO~
47. Favorite place?
; Mars. (hahaha, only carmy will understand this one xD)
48.Tag 6 person
- dalton
- michelle
- liza
- gerald
- panda ass wennie
- ma-er xD

hahaha, and about that previous post.
lol, im not gonna commit suicide la. -.-
im not that dumb, okay?
i havent met huang wei yet so i wont die. lol
the previous post was just how i kinda feel.
lol, i blame it on that story i read. xD
"on how to die effectively"
it's a really nice story.
very sad and dramatic.
and the story is nicely written too.
the plot is very very interesting and unexpected.
and there are random twists.
i love the trailer. xD

x:

2008-12-23T23:29:00.000-08:00

hehehe x:
i know. where's the singapore & indonesia review?!
i dont feel like writing it. i dont wanna, i just dont wanna T___T
lol, i'll write it when i feel like it~
btw, here's a short story...

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you are nothing but a lowlife.... she told herself as her legs dangled from the edge of the tall building.
you should end your life right now before you hurt anyone again... she told herself as she stood up and looked down.
you are a failure, you don't deserve to live. she told herself and took a step forward.

She held her breathe and prepared to jump down. She knew that the world would be a better place without her. No one would miss her, no one would cry over her because she was not worth it. A bad person, she knew that she was a bad person. She tried to change but she couldn't. No one can truly change how they are. She was a bad person from the start and will be until the end. Guilt was starting to eat her up and her tears were choking her.

Let all the suffering end. One step, and everyone will be happy. Just one more step, she knew she had to take it. But when she was about take that step, her phone started to ring.

"hello?" she answered with a shaky voice.

"are you...crying?" a small voice came from the other side of the phone.

"no... sorry and goodbye." she was about to hang up on the person who she knew she hurt the most.

"wait! i want to talk to you for awhile!" there was a long pause after the girl on the other line said that.

"well...?" she asked... she felt like crying even harder right now.

"i dont really know what to say... just dont hang up first." the girl said and started to cry on the other line.

BANG BANG BANG!

"come out now!" the girl shouted and banged on the locked door.

"dont do it..." another familiar voice said from behind the door.

She was shocked that they actually came for her. But... it was already too late. She had made up her mind. Nothing was going to stop her. The only thing she did was cause trouble and hurt people. She wanted it to end.

She took the last step and fell from the tall building. She felt light, as if all the burdens that she carried were stripped off her. She could fly, she always wanted to fly.

Just for a minute, she felt like a flying angel.

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meh, my way of expressing my feelings.
i feel really bad right now. T__T
but yeah, im not dumb enough to commit suicide la.
that's just stupid -.-

IM BACKKK!

2008-11-29T23:21:00.000-08:00

im back~
miss me? x3
anyways, my review!
jane's epic & awesome review of singapore AND medan, indonesia.
i'll do singapore's first since i went to singapore first and im very sleepy now.
(ps: not much pictures since i was damn lazy to take them. i'll try to get some pictures from my pro photographer brother in law xD)

SILK AIR. singapore's plane lo. the seats very high standard also~ 8D
so yeah, boarded the plane around 11 o clock?
well, since it was lunch time. they served us lunch.
although look very high standard, the service sucks lo.
eh -.- kuilan eh them. want to land liaw baru they serve me my lunch.
wth man?
they served the row infront of us (my mom, uncle & aunt's row) then they skip ours eh.
dian jie jie very beh song xD
and when the serve us, my mom (& very very slow nephew) already finish eating oh.
not syok then what oh?
dian jie jie got a feed back form and wrote an essay xD
lol. the whole time i was on the plane. i was afraid that it'd crash. hahahaha. very lauya la me xD
i was thinking "if im so damn scared now, what about the other 3 plane rides? more scared kann?"
so yeah, lucky lucky i didnt get plane sick x3
when we got to the airport, we did those normal airport stuff and they rented a shutter (small bus thingy) to take us to our APARTMENT.
yes, APARTMENT.
i thought the apartment not bad de lo.
who knew? when we got there, the apartment like boh standard de -.-
i took a bath in COLD WATER on the first day.
na ehh. cannot bath properly like that ah.
and the apartment also si beh kiamsiap wan lo.
the blanket like towel ah. -.-
if know earlier, i bring my own blanket! HMMPT!
couldnt sleep much because my mom kept snoring. hahahaha.
anyways, after we checked in our apartment which was on the 11th floor (puahaha, kwang came to mind xD), we went shopping. x3
since it was sunday, it was damn crowded and there was this game thing going on there that time too o__o
so yeah, more crowded, we went to the food court and ate stuff 8D
i liked the japanese pancakes! the fish! hahaha, so cute xD
puahahahaha. so we went shopping after that.
my nephew was on toy craze.
he bought LOADS of toys -.-
you see la. so many cars. lol.
at night, we went to this korean restaurant!
i was soo sooo excited.
since i never ate korean food before. hahahaha.
so yeah, we ate some famous korean food 8D
grilled meat. the chicken one taste the best xD
it tasted sweet and salty. hahahaha.
the rest of the food not very nice :/
but okay okay la.
i ate it because i wanted experience xD
so i tried MOST of the food on the table.
oh, the bill was scary.
9 people eat until 300+. @__@
hahahaha, pokkai ah~

will continue second day tomorrow or tonight x3
im lazy now. and my head isnt feeling very well.

muahahaha~

2008-11-22T00:01:00.000-08:00

got this from meghan (aka Xi Jin) xDD

1. How are you feeling today?
Dejavu - ss501
{um... okayy? o__o}

2. Will you get far in life?
Paparazzi - AJOO
{does that mean i'll become famous? *-*}

3. How do your friends see you?
Sarangalee - FT Island
{lol, love pain? xD they love me, dont they? xDD}

4. Will you get married?
FIND - ss501
{.... o__o}

5. What is your best friend's theme song?
Rokugo - Super Junior
{hahahah! so hyper. true true xD}

6. What is the story of your life?
Wo gao de dao - Yue Wei Ting
{hahaha, i deserve it all? =p}

7. What was high school like?
loves greeting - Seeya
{kyaa~ *-*}

8. How's your life going?
Timeless - Jang Riin & Junsu
{LOL~ xD yes yes. WAS}

9. What's the best thing about your friends?
nobody - Wonder Girls
{lol, i have no friends?\ they have no good qualities? xD}

10. What song will they play during your funeral?
Sonata of temptation - Ivy
{nice... T__T}

11. How does the world see you in?
Lucky Days - ss501
{hahaha, wow, you think im lucky? xp}

12. Do people secretly lust after you?
Lalala - Big Bang
{o___o lalala~ everybody get a mop~ yes, i know you all love me~}

13. How can you make yourself happy?
Hey Mr. Big
{hahaha, my mr. big will make me happy ;D imy~}

14. What should you do with your life?
Zhe yi miao - Super Junior M
{lol~ i should wait at a train station? xD}

15. Will you ever have children?
Ni shi wo xing nei de yi shou ge - Selina & Lee Hom
{... huh??}

16. What song would you strip to?
i have no idea what song this is called but lol, it's weird xD TRACK 2 8D

17. What does your mum think of you?
Chain - BACK-ON
{wow, she thinks im ambitious 8D}

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
Last farewell - Big Bang
{o__o}

19. What is your enemy's theme song?
Im Coming - Rain
{lol. xD he/she wants to dance whoever he/she is}

20. What's your personality like?
Tell Me - Wonder Girls
{saying that im busy body, HUH? -.- lol, no idea why i still have this song.}

21. What song will be played at your wedding?
Let's go on a trip - SM Town
{awwe, i was sorta hoping for Marry U by Super Junior T__T}

WHY NO DBSK SONGS?! D:

btw, I TAG KWANG! -evil laugh-
just put your playlist on shuffle and put the song name in xD

got tagged by kwang xDD

What is the most important things in your life?
- people i love 8D, fanfics & stuffs -shifty eyes-
What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
- candy and chocolates!!
Where do you wish to get married?
- a nice quiet place with beautiful scenery~
How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
- lol, dont know.
Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
- thiamhock. (same as kwang 8D)
Name the latest book you bought.
- um... hm... i dont know D: a pratical book.
What is your full name?
- Jane Pooness. (deal with it. muahahaha!)
Name the person you wish to meet in real life or the first time.
- ahem ahem, changmin or minhwan or taejun or sangjune. ^-^
Christina or Britney?
- Christina. =p
Do you do your own laundry?
- nope, never, never will either.
The most exciting place you wanna go?
- my house ^-^ um... anywhere fun .__.
Hugs or kisses?
- hugs~
8 things I am passionate about:
- korean artists, gamesss~ (rpg is loved, ahem, tekken too), photoshop, internet ^3^, horror movies, anime, clothes & watching his every move from my very very convinient seat with a good view 8D
8 things I say too often:
- eh, cheh, haha, i dont know, i hate you, you suck, omg, "his" name 8D
8 books I´ve read recently:
- do fanfics count?? if only the rain could wash away the phonecall, when a nerd removes her glasses, suicide note, you're my song, love sucks, KARMA, The Last Hydregeas. I CANT THINK OF ANYMORE T___T
8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
- Mirotic (fear the sexiness!), Hey Mr Big , Timeless, Up to the sky, U go girl, haru haru, last farewell, holding back the tears
8 things I learned last year:
- i dont know. o__o
Tag 8 people:
LIZA!, michelle xD, gerald =p, kaylee~, the panda ass (wenni~ xD), meghan ^-^, Fiqah~, Singyee (lol, post in your chinese blog =p)

tagged by liza xD

each blogger must post these rules.
each blogger must being with ten facts about them.
other bloggers who are tagged must also state the rules and ten facts about themselves. you must choose ten people to give this award to and list their names at the end.
it is essential that a tag is left at their tagboards, letting them know about the award they've recieved.

ONE im a korean artist fanatic.
TWO most boys think im not really a girl. D:
THREE i often get manicures~
FOUR i dont eat much. (lol, really~)
FIVE my worst phobia has recently been discovered by alot of people. T___T
SIX i dont really cry much but i cried over him a lot. -.-
SEVEN i think liza is a pervert for her fact number 8. xD
EIGHT i loveee chocolate too much for my own good.
NINE i cant sit still for long.
TEN i play games with my nephew and pwn him because im evil and wont let him win. xD

YOU'RE TAGGED:
chok, kwang, mish, gerald, meghan, donna, wenni, fiqah, veena, zi ying

what i have to say today:
i got a manicure this morning xD
so pretty~
i'll take pictures of it soon.
lol, another booking on 5/6th December.
will take picture again that time. xD

blah blah blahh~

2008-11-18T04:26:00.000-08:00

urgg! im more positive now x_x
which sucks... a little.
i cant stay mad for long already!
or rather, cant even get mad anymore!
hahaha, now you're probably thinking, isnt that a good thing?
well, you have to be mad sometimes mah!
if you're happy all the time later people say you're weird.
boo~ later people take advantage of it. T___T
but still. honest opinions are good!
so if you want to say something to me, just say it, araso?
i promise i wont get mad. ^-^
anyways~
last night quite fun also xD
hahahaha, i had alot of things to blog about but now i forgot liaw! boo!
i wanted to blog about teck teck's party too! but so lazy~ too many things to say
later koko call me retard because i'd probably laugh while typing it all out.
i got my piercing lo~ yay!
hahaha, the gun's sound so scary kaliah.
it was like TUK! OMGGG~ so loud x__x
back to last night.
hahaha, mom ALMOST heard me curse out loud. good thing didnt x:
miracle man! kwang came out with us! whooot~ -hugs kwang-
lol, lingyong's pants got story lagi! hahaha, nice leh? =p
and grr lingyong! so jahat ahh!
curse it all T___T
i cant eat prawns and last night so much tempting prawn food!
so sad so sadd~ T___T
and lingyong so mean lagi!
he take the creamy creamy de prawn put in front of me and say "mmm~ so nice de prawn~"
yerr! smack him ah! xD
we played this game. omfg! it made my heart jump so fast lehh x__x
good thing i lucky got my number 13! hahaha.
because im a chaboh so no need lo~ -evil laugh-
lol~ kwang got the one must pose like a pondan~ hahaha, i pose with her. xD
and mish lucky lo! get present one! hmmpt!
walao, good thing got siaw wern sit in the middle of mish and shou cong or pasti got food fly around de x__x
jiayih one i dont think i remember o__o
OMG!! JIAYIHH~ did you open?! O____O
lingyong's monkey pose xDD
vk nice also lo, he got the no command de xD
hahaha, after that the boys played DOTA.
those boys ah, dota dota dota nia.
you have to understand their language.
examples are
- eh, want to go out later? = eh, want to play dota with me later?
- you think you very geng kan? = i challenge you to dota see who more li hai!
and for every situation, pasti got dota de.
for example
okay, so you dissed them by saying they're gay and they're not worthy.
guy: EH! THEN DOTA ONE ON ONE LA! SEE WHO WIN
you say: sure, you vs lingyong lo.
guy: EH! CANNOT LIKE THAT DE AH!
and it's easy to pick a fight with them xD
OGRE MAGI'S BUTT IS SO DAMN UGLY!
someone will reply you for SURE if you scream that out.
back to last night =p
lol, lingyong said something really funny when the moms started to sing in the next room xD
lingyong: ehh.
me: hmm? oO
lingyong: how do you put up with this? do they do this every time??
that made me laugh xD
so while the boys were playing and the moms were singing, we girls went out 8D
jiayih had to go unitek to buy sims but then, computer section closed liaw
yer, so many emo wannabes there de -.-
and alot of bin chao chao de ma lai cha boh there also.
see also tulan.
hahahaha~
then when jiayih left, we went to the mall.
me and mish walk fast? xD
bought a pair of earrings and a ring for someone (:
hahaha, i'll go pokai in singapore i tell you!
i got presents to buy xD
kwang, reych, mish, jiayih, chiewniing&fred (birthday same day ah them xD), LING (buy her mirotic enough le xD), ly, vk, singyee (for sure de =p) and alot lagi. x:
lingyong's brother doesnt look like him oO
at first i thought it was who lagi xD
but lol, then i saw lingyong's sister.
so he left early and he left his command paper thinggy so i have it with me first 8D
then kwang leave le T__T
left me, mish and siaw wern~
me and mish go close the boys' connection xD
they still dont know lagi and they were like
ehh? how come suddenly become bright de?
only soon ai know xD shh~ dont tell x:
all and all, we had fun (:

now i need to work on two graphics~
hahaha, been long time since i got a request xD
ps: i made a sexy banner ;D sangjune ftwww~

hopeless

2008-11-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

it's been how many days already?
i dont know... 6 i think.
one more chance.
one more chance left.
if you cant do it, im giving up.
im really gonna give up.
im tired of crying over you so much.
im tired of knowing you care but dont act like it.
im sick and tired of being ignore.
you know what?
you make me hate you but you make me miss you so much.
i dont want to cry over you anymore.
crying too much can cause people to be blind.
i dont want to be blind.
i still want to meet someone who's better than you someday.
even though it's hard to meet someone like that.
i hate you for being so nice, i hate you for changing me so much.
i hate you for making me so weak and nice.
but i miss you so much to the point that i forget i hate you.
one more chance.
there's still tomorrow.
if you cant do it, then i'll just have to give up.
i wont admit it, i wont.
i'll go on my holiday and try to forget about you.

Nintendo DSi

2008-10-05T03:09:00.001-07:00

As expected, Nintendo just announced the DSi at its fall presentation -- and
it's got dual touchscreens. The company is calling it a "third platform," which
means it's complementing the existing DS Lite, not necessarily replacing it.
Lookswise there's not much different, but it's some 12 percent thinner, partly
because it doesn't have a GBA cartridge slot. The touchscreens are also slightly
larger, at 3.25 inches, and there's an external three megapixel camera, and a
front-facing camera located on the hinge. There's an SD slot and internal
storage -- we're not sure how much at the moment, but photos can be taken
directly to the Wii Photo Channel on the card. Nintendo's also launching an
online DSi Shop, which will sell content directly over WiFi, including a free
browser app and "DS Ware" game -- and you'll be able to get on for free at
"Nintendo Zone" hotspots, which will be located in Japanese McDonalds. The store
will take the newly-renamed Nintendo Points, 1000 of which will come free with
the DSi until March 2010 and content will be priced in 0 / 200 / 500 / 800 point
brackets. ¥18,900 ($178), launching in Japan on November 1st in black and white
-- the rest of us will have to wait until next year.

credits: Engadget

Nintendo has gone over the top this time with this new NDSi
It is thinner and so much prettier.
It had double touch screen AND a camera on the bottom right side of the DSi.
there's black and white only... i think oO
arg~ i like the camera T__T
the quality of the picture looks quite good.
if anyone wants a picture of the new DSi, leave a message in the tagbox and i'll give it to you.
the price is around B$250. not expensive either.
brunei might probably get it around January next year so happy waiting (:

apologies

2008-10-04T06:51:00.000-07:00

everytime i see the deepest scar (about 3-4 mm thick -.-) of the three i have on my leg, i'll think "anything can happen at anytime."
unpredictable things just happen to you and when you realise it, you just start to think alot...
i didnt think i'd fall down, but still i did.
i didnt think a small fall like that could cause such a scar, but it did.
i didnt think that scar would disable me from walking on the first day, but it did.
i didnt think that the scar would still hurt today.
well, i dont think that i'll die anytime soon.
but will i?
i dont know why, but i suddenly thought of that and i got scared.
things are always like this,
when you die, what you regret most is not telling people your feelings and not telling them that you're sorry.
when you die, you just want to die in peace, no hating, no being hated.
so yeah, when you die, do you think it'll be too late for all of that?
will you regret it?
im still alive now, so i'll do everything i want to before i die.
it's better now then never.
you're not going to die so you're not going to tell people that you're sorry.
but then, when you die, will you still have the chance to?

michelle, im sorry.
im really sorry for everything.
the way i act, the way i talk and for everything i do.
i feel like, you're the friend that i neglect the most.
i should apologize to you first out of everyone.
im sorry.
we had our differences, we had our fights, we didnt really stick together, we hated, we loved, we laughed, we shared.
everything, i will remember it.
you've changed alot and it makes me feel like a spoiled brat.
im sorry for offending you before, im sorry for shouting at you, im sorry for entering your life and ruining your fun times sometimes, im really really sorry.
when school reopens, i'll do what you wanted me to. no backouts. xD
im selfishly asking for your forgiveness, but you don't have to forgive me.
you have the right to hate me. im sorry for everything i did.

im sorry chia ling.
you're the person i spent most of my childhood with.
remember when we were still little kids? inseperable.
you're my cousin, and you will always be.
when we grew up, we sort of lost everything, you had your friends and i had mine.
what i regret the most is not taking your side when you fought with my friends.
im sorry.
family first before friends. i will remember that. so dont worry.
i've treated you bad, im sorry.
i've bullied you, im sorry.
but then, i tried my best to make it up to you by helping you when you get in trouble.
sometimes i suceed but sometimes i fail, im sorry for being useless...
next time you need help, i'll give a 100% and try my best.
im sorry ling.

to.... kwang,
im tired of fighting with you.
im sure you are too.
this isnt doing any of us any good.
i'll take the fall for this.
i feel that it is... obligated that i should explain to you, but i dont think i should
sorry, that's all i can say.
wengsonn was on yesterday and chatting with him made me realise how foolish this all was.
there was no use waiting for you to admit.
fighting because of something as small as that, what was i thinking?
i dont know either.
im sorry, sincerely, truely.
you want me to say that to you in person? im fine with that too.
i wasnt important enough to try to give you a life lesson.
im sorry for that, im sorry for trying. i shouldnt have.
what you do had nothing to do with me but i still butted in.
im sorry.

people who hate me for reasons that i dont know
im sorry to whoever you people.
you guys should at least scold me mahh.
please tell me why you guys are mad. please?
im sorry for anything i did.
but if i didnt do it, then wtf you.

will continue when i think of more.
remind me?

anyways, i might not be blogging much for october (maybe)
i dont know. nothing to write about?
and oh, i got a friend code for Animal Crossing: Wild Life
you can leave your friendcode in the tag box and i'll add you.

edited typos -.-

DBSK'S MIROTIC

2008-09-21T19:32:00.000-07:00

hahaha. chia ling agrees with me that yunho is damn sexy.
we're both converting to yunho fans 8D
lol. anyways, yay! the mv is out in youtube!
the person posted it yesterday but i didnt see it oO
so anyways,

dbsk's mirotic ;D

my comment;;

i dont really like their hair but who cares!
they're still damn sexy 8D
especially yunho +__+
omfgness! AHH~ sexy <3
lol. yunho's hair looks good ^-^
and lol. love the rap part.
yunho looks good doing that hand on chin thingy +_____+
downloaded the song already 8D
and i keep listening to it.
hahahahaha.
it's nice.
even chia ling says so 8D
i've got youuuu~ under my skin.
*-* -is done with fangirling-

okay, manga review! 8D

Special A-
AHHH~ KEIII! +___+
lmao. really nice manga
it's funny xD
currently at chapter 8 page 20 8D
hahaha. started reading last night. xp
i love the way kei always mocks hikari because she's second place and he's first.
kei is just amazing *-*
he's good in everything xD
and RYUUU~ puahahaha. i love his hair x:

Vampire Knight-
hiatus hiatus D:
sheesh. im so lazy.
vampire knight is really awesome +__+
and oh! Vampire Knight Guilty (season 2 of the anime) is coming out soon!
should i do a countdown?
and lol. the opening and closing themes still do not fail to amaze.

this season is really amusing 8D
^ according to chia ling
because yuuki keeps getting bitten.
lol chia ling xD

anyways, if you read the manga before wacthing the anime, you'll know what happens.
kaname's gonna bite yuuki to awaken her! -spoiler kick- OWW~ TT_____TT
because she's a.... -hint hint wink & tries to avoid spoiler kick-
hahah. you'll have to figure out yourself ;D
orreadthemangax:
anyways. i dont really like shinki's hair colour in the anime -.-
YAHHH~ i dont like their hair colours in the anime -frowns-

i'll post vampire knight guilty's trailer in the next post.

new korean boyband alert ;;
Co:coon!!
lol. bae sub <3

YAY! IM LEVEL 19 IN MHA! fear meeeeee~ -laughs evilly-

random stuff

2008-09-19T20:06:00.000-07:00

1. basketball training is tiring. enough said there xD
but it's paying off~ whoot!

2. our commerce project is dah bomb!
hahahaha. our hardwork ^^
thanks girls for doing such a good job xp

3. our teacher is getting married!
me and michelle will make a huge card for her and ask people to sign. hahahha~

4. i see the joy of facebook *-*
my heroes ability i mean.
there i was, calling the boys stupid for enjoying button pressing.
hahahaha, the joy to it is not button pressing but leveling up and kicking some butts xD

5. my blog died but still alot of pageviews during my inactivity?

6. DBSK'S NEW ALBUM IS COMING OUT!
one word to describe it, sexy <3
yunho never looked hotter +____+
20 second previews suck -.-
i hope the full version comes out soon.

7. addicted to animal crossing. been playing it for days xD
ever since i got my ds (which is like... 2 weeks ago? o__o)

8. i dont really understand people -.-
one thing, they're nice to you.
the second thing, they act like you just killed their family or something.
what did i do this time?!
i dont think i've ever did anything bad to you (and yes, our playful fights do not count {neither does the butt banging})

9. mehh. im getting less online time D: curses!

10. tekken still rules. xD
i wonder if asuka and jin are related oO
since they're both kazama.

11. i forgot what i wanted to say already D:

im done. xp

-insert title here-

2008-09-03T23:24:00.000-07:00

i think it's safe to say im going absolutely insane over tekken.
hahaha. was playing it with my nephew last night and totally pwned. (jane has been practicing!)
so he got mad and didnt want to play with me anymore. boohoo T__T
so i had to play story mode (yes! i shall unlock all the characters without the help of other people +_+)
being me, i used hwoarang first!
lol, biased? xD
i cant help it. hahaha~
mehh, all the stages were easy peasy. i got alot of perfects xD
the hard one was final stage (of course)
with that old man that had a mouth on his belly (didnt bother remembering the name)
because he shot fire out of his belly D:
and it took more than half of my life!
sjdlksjdlks -.-
after 10 minutes of button continuous pressing, i finally defeated him! lol~
see, hwoarang is awesome, neh? xD
unlocked the kangaroo~ x3
so continued using Brian, wanted to use Asuka next but nephew wanted Brian -.-
so yeahh, it was easy too except that hongkong detective dude (ahaha! devil jin is easy too!).
final stage was damn hard -.-
play for more than 15 minutes?!
omfg, but i still couldnt defeat him
lmao, got fed up xD
i will practice again!
or i should have just set the level to easy -.-
hahahahaha~

so yeah, today there was basketball meeting!
so we finally have a fixed time for training
lol, no need to run around luu~

watching vampire knight again after my LONG hiatus off anime. ahhahahah~
there's only 13 episodes for season one? -.-
the manga is LONGER! T__T
but season two is coming out soon~
hahaha. vampire knight GUILTY
being crazy here, listening to tekken 5 ost.
cant help it, they're so catchy xD

fangirling moment;
KYAAA~~~ ZERO ZERO ZERO~~~ *-*

lol, sent carmen neechan on bento craze
hahahaha~ she's loving it ;D
luckysundae @ flickr is awesome at making bentos!
you should go see some of her work xD
type japanese obento and search
look for luckysundae's work (:

whoot~

2008-08-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

lol. went to meghan's blog xD
and saw something that made me go hyper
MUAHAHAHAH! for once, minhwan is in the middle of her blog header!
yay! minhwan deserves the attention >D
-kicks jaejin away-

today, there was a bird that flew into tuition -.-
omg. scary kaliahh.
anytime can poop on my head if it flies past me xD
stood there looking at it for like, how long. hahaha
and when i open the door, i saw it flying around outside lagi -.-
ehla. that person standing infront of me that time so hiao kaliahh. xD

i read loh's Beobong! be jealous ;D
hahahahaha~

we're 4 year old kids~

2008-08-18T07:09:00.000-07:00

hahaha. i'll take chia hoe's bet and be a nice person xp.
so i wont argue with you liaw.
chia hoe sucks -.-
keep keking me with that, say what want to be a good person.
poo poo la. be a good person lo.
not that hard la.
and lol, i laughed at meghan neechan's comment about being 4 year old kids.
let you play la ;D
i dont want to play with you liaw lu~
later chia hoe say i lose, have to walk around with a "wo shi shen" paper for one whole day.
and you want to embarrass me infront of everyone?
go ahead. ;D
i embarrass myself so much so i dont really care already.
plus, i laugh at myself.

and you said i talk back behind your back?
you tell me what i say about you, hmm?
so you fight with me, just because you THINK i say something bad about you?
my poor friend, you have no idea.
one sided stories are always like that.
you'll end up regretting that you didnt ask for the whole truth.
you wanna know what i said about you, hmm?
let me think...

for recently one, before we fight (the only possible reason for you to get mad [from my point of view])
what told jia yih was;
nabeh la. 30 minutes liaw.
still not nothing from them
waste our period nia, roman angry liaw lo.
call them film now, they dont want. just waste time.
kamlan la, you see. later cannot finish la.
im tired of screaming at them.
they want to do what they want, let them do lo.
i did my part liaw
let them embarrass themselves.

^ yes, that is what i recall.
but then, that's not DIRECTLY at you.
i have no idea what YOU heard from your so called spies.
but then, your choice to believe or not.
not anything i can do.
you want to fight with me, your choice la.
just dont regret what you do.
and lol, im not saying you'll regret, im just saying dont.

oh, i also have spies around you ;D
and pfft. you're going around telling people that we're not in good terms.
thank you so much for spending so much effort and time on me. ^-^
and chia ling?
you can keep her.
one less burden for me.
now you can go settle all her problems and comfort her ;D
enjoy it.
i dont want it back. xp

------------------------

to f2a people ;;
do not be discouraged (:
it was last minute rush, so it couldnt be perfect right?
since it's over, stop blaming each other already.
what has happened already happened, there's no way to change that.
im pretty sure we'll get a second chance ^-^
hopefully, you guys will work together the next time and we will have enough time to prepared. lol.

signed;;

jane
the awesome hypocrite ;D

reply~

2008-08-17T05:05:00.001-07:00

ahh wells, was viewing blogs ~ and guess what? someone admitted for what i've
wrote in my previous post =O ! i say liao lo ~im not saying about you, pls dont
get offended.and yet, someone replied for that post. stupid o not? she reply in
2 post lagi.i said "someone" , and i did not write your name in that post, why
reply o? gong kaliah!

hahahaha. i alang admit one la.
not like you lo, always wont admit and get other people into trouble ^-^
and you also very li hai la, still reply me oh.
yeah bah. gong bah.
i told you liaw. if want to be stupid, i will be
and i feel like being stupid to a stupid person ;D

you sure you're not? ah, whose the one who goes like.. i wanna print out the lyrics and blah blah blah huh? did i say my temper is nice & good? no right? LOL. you sure you're not xiaoqi? maybe you never knew and noticed :) OH OH! did you? since whn i hurt your feelings? wahh, say till like that ah! as what you said, she's nice to me. so what can i say about her? ;) tell me. oh sorry, i borrowed the PSP first if you never knew. dont blv? ask the owner, dummy. you had little time to play with it? isnt it because you were standing outside the corridor and playing with it till it kana confiscated by mr.wu? ahh poor you! heh.

hahaha. kesian la you. dont know how to use quotes.
i thought your blogging very li hai de?
how come dont use quotes? xp
eh. you know what i mean ah?
i said not only me like to do that ah, i never said im not bitchy ;D
wah. see people, i was so good to offer to print out the lyrics, kwang dont want one oh.
you didnt say but i say oh xp
who says i never xiao qi?
i got xiao qi but then not xiao qi you
what you do you just dont know how serious nia.
you ALWAYS hurt my feelings, so now you know liaw lo. very good la like that.
hahaha. so you see la. you hang out with bias people so that's why you're biased ^^
and hello. you can ask the owner, dummy back to you.
that day i borrow before you come lagi oh and you come just take from me first time.
hahahaha. kena confiscated. so funny kaliahh.
but then, i will get it back one oh
im sure if it was you, you would probably pee in your pants and not go ;D
nope, not poor me. poor you because you cannot play also liaw. neh neh xp

there's nothing to do with me, but someone kp telling me that you threatening
people ma ~ oh, did they annoy you? most of the time, i see you chasing them
around, trying to shoot them with your oh-so-stupid rubberband skills. :) &
how do you know their not angry? have you ask them for how they feel yet? i
guess not. heh! of course la, who would be racist to american o? negro lei?
yealaa, not completely la. whatever you say ;)

see, you so kepo kaliah.
nothing to do with you you still want to say ;D
because you're deaf mah.
you dont know what happen first unless you stalk me 24/7.
if they dont kacau me, i wont kacau them back (except for steven but i never threaten him plus he's my good friend so HA!)
and i know my rubber band skills very li hai la, dont need to compliment ^^
they angry their business lo. you think they kacau me i dont angry ah? ;D
and i dont need to ask la because they also dont ask mah.
then if you say i dont racist to american, you say i racist to who leh?
eh, i never racist to negro leh.
nah. you see, you simply add things in liaw.
yeah lo. whatever i say bah ^^
if whatever i say you still reply for what oh?
too bored kan?

yes you did kek with me with my secrets! maybe you just never realise only. you
sure o not? people tell me secrets more than telling you la. you know why? even
cheewee and the others tell me not to tell you anything & most of their
secrets, you dont even know. cause i nvr tell anyone neither michelle nor you.
did i threaten someone with their secrets? like who? :D maybe last time, but
now?

hahaha. i realise, i realise.
like you also kek me with mine hor?
i know i kek you before but i said lately oh?
i kek you lately meh? you say la.
hahaha. because im not close with them mah
and my bf not their kawan mah, so why they want to tell me?
people also told me secret and you dont know nia mah.
see, im so good. i dont even say WHO told me secret hia.
and you said cheewee told you. tsk tsk tsk.
you just give clue nia. xp
i know i know, because you told me liaw mah that time.
see, you say last time but i understand
i say last time but you dont understand. stupid la you.
we both kek people last time mah but now dont have liaw lo.
end of story for this.

ohh, isit? i dont wanna tell you why, im afraid you might get hurt and end up
crying in the corner & then you'll makeup stories, telling all the other
guys what i do to you. i never badmouth about you o! i just listen to ppl who
badmouth about you & said oh and ah. yea, i see you still badmouth about her
o. ohh! im sure i got witness about you badmouthing shannon not long ago. :)
it's not ME, it's YOU who started this.

i wont cry like you will ;D
plus, that's what YOU do.
i dont make up stories and tell people just for pity
it's you hia.
you never badmouth about me but you say oh and ah.
means you know people badmouth about me
i ask you liaw you still lie oh.
yeah, you see de ah?
not hear de meh?
wah! kwang's eyes can hear things de eh!
bah. come with witness la, you say how long ago.
eh, who's the one who suddenly come online and be bitchy oh?
you angry me like always no reason one, just dont talk nia.
wont even tell me, how i know what i do wrong and try to change?

yes, it's obvious! omg, you sure? that day, michelle came back. she bought a
black book ~ it's pretty. and what did you say? you look at it and say "it's
pretty but the legs are so puffy should blah blah." dont tell me you didnt say
that :) if you say no, then you're a BIG FAT LIAR! :( yeahlaa, your just
claiming that your PS works are so AWESOME. LOL. oh, well. i admit i did say
that. to deana ma ~ but now, you got hear me saying that? GOT OR NOT? :)

hey. i said it was pretty (this is a compliment ;D) but the legs are really too thin -.-
wah. give comment also wrong is it?
then you want me to find the artist and tell him/her to draw the legs more big?
you give me way to contact la. and i say.
when come out new one, i compliment, "it's perfect! O:"
im not a big fat liar ^^
i said i did say it but i said i stated the truth and what i think about it.
the pages are nice but the legs really not nice mah.
so thin eh -.-
im proud of my work because they're showable ;D
and yes, i claim that they are AWESOME.
not only deana oh.
still got leh hor.
you always say what people copycat still scold people stupid(just admit it, you said that last time and you still say that the things made are not only for one person) la but you yourself say people copycat then not stupid la? ;D
and now, you dont say liaw mah
but im sure you will say again next time de la~

no meh? got kua ~ for everything you deny, i got witness :) you deny here,
and you'll admit in front of me. im sure im gonna have an arguement with you
face to face soon. im not jealous of your family member. whose the one who
always take her brother and show off? like what chia hoe said; " you zhong, jiao
ni ge ge lai la." right? :)

wah. when i got show off my brother le? -.-
now this i really dont know.
i dont know also cannot admit la.
argue with me la. i wont argue back, cannot scream liaw me or get sore throat again.
and when did chia hoe say that to me oh?
how come i dont remember one?
yeah la. you not jealous lo ;D
hahahaha. so pathetic kaliah. you want to take this to argue lagi.
you can talk bad about me but dont drag my brother in.
really. you better not. because my brother did nothing.

oh maybe you dont know? to tell you the truth, i feel like you're copying
me :) LOL. good things? isee. fine then, but for you ma. if me, i dont like
people copying me. yea, you're hiao in case if you dont know. if you never
notice. you've always been hanging out with guys nowadays. girl friends? who?
me, jiayih, michelle, reychelle, kaylee? aiyo ~ them only ma. other gurl
friends? if you dont mind, let's see our phone contact and compare whose phone
got more girl's contact then :) well, if you are gou ying guys in tuition, dont
you? idk why your face so thick lo. hmm, i dont wanna embarass you in public, i
think if can i wanna argue with you face to face ;)EJ? ohh, she's the one who
talked with us, we never started a convo with her before. oh, maybe a several
times. friends should be honest to each other ~ so i dont mind if you talked to
me straightforward. ohh, yea! the strangers whom you talked to normally are
guys. i see, so most of your friends are guys lo? okay

wah. i copy you ah?
so you say yourself very hiao la?
what i copy from you oh?
your ego is getting to your head liaw if you think im copying you.
you dont awesome things so why i want to copy?
you tell me la?
i hang out with boys and i hang out with girls too.
so get over it.
what about YOU?
tell me who you hang out with leh?
eh, when i go online, i chat with more girls than boys one eh. -.-
not like you, always chat with boys one.
the guys in tuition are my friends. who say i gou ying them ah?
macam you also got talk to them one hor.
and why i always talk to guys in tuition?
because YOU dont talk to me, you're always talking to someone else.
so i no choice lo, can talk with the guys, chiew niing and shannon nia.
i always embarass myself in public, i wont mind if you do, like you can.
yeah, you NEVER start a conversation with her before.
i see i see.
and btw, you cannot use A before several.
and you tell me what boy strangers i talk to first nowadays, huh? -.-
except that new tuition guy because gerald forgot his name and asked me mah.
eh, when i got say most of my friends are guys oh? hmm? you tell me la.

yeepp. it's so obvious! you bully & hit them cause you wanna get their
attention and want them to kacau you ma. aiyo ~ more mean? i dont think so. i
think your so much more a girl who likes to flirt. in my opinion la :) yaaa!
your welcome. take that as a compliment from ME la :) lesbo? im more of a lesbo
la. i call girls darling, sweety and more eh. LOL! hiao hiao voice? omg. if you
never knew, the way you speak to guys and to girls is so much more different.
eerie? omg, so beh paiseh la you. you never taught me that word before! paiseh
la. i learned from mr.midnight's storybook de :)

i bully and hit them because they kacau me
why i want them to bully me back oh?
cari pasal nia.
you dont think so because you're just denying it ;D
a girl who flirts talk like want to goda goda people de.
i talk so rude kaliah where got want to goda people.
like you, baru the type who like to goda boys
those boys say they like you liaw, you still treat them like you want them to like you de yang zi.
then always will have problem and tell me.
thank you thank you~
and yeah la. you lesbo lo.
who say? i treat girls more nicer eh.
boys i just chu lu chu lu talk to them and girls so polite kaliah
i scream at boys or girls more de ha?
i think boys hor.
macam last time you go ask me what it means oh?
online lagi
because you say you lazy search mah.
careful, you shouldnt read scary books since you're so afraid of ghosts ;D
siapa tahu, later when you're reading at this time of month, you see one oh.

be back with the rest. need to read my chinese ming ju -.-

loser~

2008-08-17T02:45:00.000-07:00

ha. you're such a spoil sport. (:
SPOIL SPORT!
you just cant play fair, can you?
fine, you can go tell people what i said about them. ^-^
i dont give a poo poo about what you tell other people.
neither can i control what YOU want to say.
it's your big mouth anyways, not mine.
you said you hate my attitude, style and all that right?
well, let me tell you something. you're WORSE.
yeah. you are what we call a SUPER backstabber.
worse that a normal backstabber.
you're so hypocritic.
say you hate backstabbers but you, yourself are one.
wait. maybe you're not so hypocritic.
you hate backstabbers but not SUPER backstabbers.
ahh. i get it now.
and for YOUR information, i wont be a super backstabber like you are.
i'll keep what you said about people.
unlike you, i aint a spoil sport and will not go tell people.
im just a girl with a bitchy attitude but you are one with a bitchy attitude and personality to match.
doing all this just for revenge over nothing, you should be ASHAMED.
go hide under a rock. ^^
well, you want to know what i think about you?
i can tell you, everthing i dont like about you honestly and straight forwardly if you ask me to.
i wont if you dont want to.
because im not a person who likes to ruin other people's image by saying fake things or saying them against their wills.
because im a good sport. ^-^
you know what?
i thought we had alot of similarities.
but i guess i was wrong.
you're so different.
maybe we were similar before.
but you, you changed.
and fyi, when someone tells you a secret.
you should leak any small information out to other people to make them know someone told you a secret.
because not all people are stupid like you and cannot solve mysteries.
and yes, you called me stupid. i call you stupid back. so it's only fair ;D
and whoa. my blog views went up.
you must have cried for pity and told people how evil i was then asked them to visit to see what i wrote o:
wow. i bet you told them alot of things that only in your head eh? ^-^
next time you want to spoil someone's image, go think what you do first la.
for the people who's siding her, you continue siding her ;D
there's no bad guy and good guy for this round.
if there is a bad guy, you must think it's pasti me la.
but then. you should think twice and try to know what's going on and what has been going on.
what you see on the outside might not be what's really hidden inside.

whoot~ yay! im the bad guy! -is extremely happy about this-
when i dominate the world, i'm gonna kill you all ;D

i hate hypocrites except myself. (:
because im an awesome hypocrite~

signed;;

jane
the stupid hypocrite who wasted all her time and efforts for somebody who isnt worth it.

psst. hey kwang, you noticed something?
we seem to always fight during tests or near tests. lol
yay for monthly fights~

e d i t s ;;

oh yeah, what you did just proves that you are WEAK and cannot handle things properly.
it's the first sign of loserness and noobness.
i bet the people you told, wont trust you anymore because you just backstabbed your best friend like that. ;D
good job and kudos for you, i guess.

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and a side note;;

uljjang means internet face idol.
meaning that they are popular for their looks online and some of them are models 8D

just went to the soompi uljjang thread not long ago ^-^
and let me tell you, the members there are so nice!
they share and comment and stuff, which is awesome~
and omfg. the male uljjang are so hot *-*
and some of the female ones are so pretty or adorable!
omg. you just feel like pincing those uljjangs cheeks because they're so cute!
but then, some of the girls are .-.
well, not that pretty and look very very fake.
plastic surgery is scary D:

and i envy xiaxue! ):
she gets to buy all those nail crystals! o:
i cant even find much in brunei .__.
damn internet. why dont you ship to brunei?! T__T

hmm?

2008-08-16T00:31:00.000-07:00

im done with you. your temper, style & everything is so shitty annoying.
your so " xiao qi " temper is so shitty annoying. once people said " NO! " dont
go " I DONT CARE! I WANNA LIKE THIS LIKE THAT! " it's bitchy, fyi.

since when was i the only one who says i dont care, i want like this like that?
hello? like SOMEONE i know also like that hor?
and my temper?
your temper isnt the awesomest one also eh, is it?
and me xiao qi?
hahahaha. when i xiao qi you oh?
when you do something offending, i just ignore it hia but you just dont know that you hurt my feelings.
you're always like that, hurting me but you just never know because you're too occupied
that is the reason why im unattaching myself from you
because i dont want to cry over small stupid mistakes you do.
no one is perfect. so get over it.
why dont you say michelle also?
she was WAY worse than i am.
she's just nice to you, you never noticed that, did you?
i was nice enough to share that PSP with you
you think you're the only one who want to play kan?
you were hogging the psp and i only had little time to play with it.

and you threaten people for what you want! wtf man. if you want what you want,
do it yourself. your a racist & you scold other people whose racist. wth?
you scold people whose racist and you, yourself are racist too. stupid!hmm, your
bitchy-ness is getting on other people's nerve. :)

i threaten people? what does this have to do with you?
i only threaten people who fucking annoy me, like vk, linyong they all?
yeah, for some reason, they dont get mad at me for threatening them but YOU do?
like wtf man. you have issues.
they know im their friend, and they are my friends, so what are you, huh?
like you never threaten people also.
i might be racist, but i never show it out much around people except in school hor?
and me being racist, what does it have to do with YOU?
yeah, i know my bitchyness is getting on other people's nerves
so what?
i do what i want, i help people when i want to.
better than someone, seldom help people and very ungrateful when people help them. (:
humans are like that, when other people do something wrong, they will scold, do something wrong yourself, you wont scold
im that type of human.
hypocritic, no?
well, you're not any better

oh yeah, here's a quote from meghan, WHO IS AMERICAN.
and is my friend.
and lol neechan, she is right when she says im racist ;D
but then, you know that already x:
well, at least im not COMPLETELY racist~ ^-^

- m e g h a n ❤ ;; ♪ ☆ ;; says:
"your a racist" She says you're a racist?
.-.
if you're racist, why talk to me? i'm not asian.

and i dont think people can tell you secrets no more. why? cause you'll be so
fcking stupid. :) seriously. you'll just kek that people with her/his secrets.

like other people are any better?
yeah, im sooo stupid.
im so fucking stupid too.
oh, im a retard.
get over it.
it's my life, i want to be retarded, then i will be
i want to be smart, then i will be
say what you want.
i keep what i want to keep.
i kept so many of your secrets already
did i kek you with them lately?
i think the answer is a big fat NO
last time? maybe yes, but now, no.
so i dont see why you should use that against me
now i keep secrets i want quite awesomely, i wont even leak or give tiny clues ;D
so no, you wont know that someone told me a secret.
im just too awesome like that.
and tell you what. you say nobody right?
well, people DO tell me ;D
and you.
well, you're no different from me.
you also threaten other people with their secrets mah.

and you said your not a backstabber. but you are! you thought people wont tell
one isit? stupid la you :) you've already badmouth about someone for alot of
times.

since when did i backstab you? huh?
i just told shannon & jia yih that you dont care about me liaw.
because, you know what? you dont.
li jie and michelle. you care about them more, you know?
im very observant.
who said that people wont tell, people are free to say anything they want
their mouth, they say what they want to.
cannot control one la
some people's mouth just very itchy
like to talk behind their friend's back and wont admit.
who say i badmouth SOMEONE nia?
i badmouth alot of people already ;D
but i dont badmouth my BEST friends. (ps: fyi dear, michelle was my GOOD friend last time but now that she's better, im accepting that fact)
unlike someone who badmouthed about me and still said she didnt.
i admit, that i badmouth about michelle, but then, she change liaw now, you still see me badmouth about her?
i dont think have hor.
and shannon before also, but now? dont have hor
havent badmouth people for a long time liaw.
maybe i should start with you (:
oh wait. i already did.
because you're the one who started to be bitchy
and stupid? you only know how to say that har?
yeah la, i very stupid
happy hor? xp

someone have something pretty, which you dont have. ofcourse la, everyone will
envy. but you? your " jealousy " is so obvious.

my jealousy isnt obvious.
if i like something, then i'll go "OOOOO~ so pretty *-*"
if i dont like, then i'll be straight forward and say it isnt. i dont think you know that i hate bright bright colours against black and colours that clash. it's the same as ps. i think my works are good because the colours dont clash.
get that fact in your head before you start talking about my "jealousy"
if i see pretty girls, i'll be like "wah so pretty ah her!" (i've said that before, havent i? xp)
i dont go "bitch man that girl, so ugly." if an ugly girl who pisses me off or just does something i dont like, then probably i would say.

if i always jealous, then my previous compliments for what? i compliment anything i think is good and sometimes keep my mouth shut when i see something i dont like.
what people have is what they will have.
if i want, i just go buy.
senang mah?
but then, some people have issues with people "copying" them.
buy something the same then will go "stupid copycat la, fuck you."

you have an awesome family member, so what? it's not YOU. dont take other people
to show off, bitch.

since when did i show off my family member?

i think i just told you about my family members and what they do hor?
and i never claimed that it was me.
you see, you see. this is your problem.
you think too much.
i never said i was someone else, im me and will always be.
i like myself the way i am, bitchy, straightforward and stupid (your addition)
you ever heard of being proud of your family member?
at least i dont bad mouth my cousins and call them bitches.

maybe you're just "jealous" that i have awesome family members. if what you claim about my jealousy is true, then im certain that you are "jealous" ;D

you copycat! get a life. stop copying! im sure if i copy you, you wouldnt be
happy too right? it's not that cannot copy but you're like totally copying the
things she do. and many people told me your very hiao. well, it's true. you can
simply talk with a guy, whose totally a stranger to you. & your flirting
skills! very pro. well, you can take it as a compliment from ME.

im copying who oh?
i also dont know.
so how can you know?
you tell me la.
and no, im very happy if you copy me. (:
because only good things baru people want to copy.
if you copy me, then that means im good. YAY!
im very hiao? oh, is it?
guys only? wahh, i only talk to boys now liaw la?
i think i still have girl friends de hor and i still talk to them.
i still talk to girls i dont know, so yeah.
whatever you want say, i cant stop you.
wah? now i know how to flirt?
very nice hor.
i know how to flirt eh!
hey! kwang says my flirting skills very good eh!
im so honoured!
i never go gou ying people de.
i just talk to random people when no one else talks to me.
when i talk to shiaotiing they all, it wont last long because we dont have much to say. you guys like taiwan, cannot blame. if got korean freak in class also, i will keep talking to him/her also wuad.
EJ? well, you guys also keep talking to her until i also cannot talk liaw
im polite, i let people talk.
when you dont talk to me, i go talk to other people lo.
you want me sit there fa dai kan?
and you say i only talk to boys?
well, for one thing, they're more friendly and actually talk to me, so you cant blame me for talking to them.
plus, they're more entertaining because they're more straight forward and wont care about their surroundings.
they dont sugar coat their words and just say what they think.
like gerald, fred, calvin, lai yong, chia hoe those guys.
because they're REAL and wont lie about what they think.
it's better than talking to someone who only says what other people want to hear.
i bet if i was straight forward to you, our friendship wouldnt last that long already.
now that we're being straight forward, im going to tell you everything i think like how YOU did.
wow, remember just now teacher roman ask us to write about fantasy?
well, you can add the flirting part in ^-^
im very sure you can get 100% one!
and ps: i talk to strangers, so what? the people i talk to now are the people i know. hello. when you see me talk to strangers and become good friends with them? hmm?

there's a feeling that you wanted to have all those guys to like you, very
obvious la. your " hiao hiao voice " is so eeerie! HAHAHA ~

wah? i want all those guys like me?
who oh? you dont want friends kan?
if i want them to like me, will i still bully them and hit them?
i dont think so
it's simple.
if a girl likes a boy, she will treat him soo nicely and try to let him have everything he wants. (ps: sluts wear short short skirts and i can get one anytime if i want to be slutty)
wah, compared to me, i think im more mean kaliahh.
i feel that im lesbo, treating you so nice last time.
yeah sure, i like to talk to people and be friends.
but flirt? heck no.
you also always talk to boys mah. so you also flirting kan?
bah, now i know liaw.
and lol. i got hiao hiao voice lagi?
maybe your eardrum broken liaw.
too bad cannot fix de ah ;D
maybe my sore throat affect my voice la.
so kahsian la me, keep scream scream scream at people until i get sorethroat.
sorethroat liaw still have to scream scream scream.
and omg! kwang so lihai eh!
know how to use eerie!
im so proud to have teacher you some english words.
still remember that phobia thing?
it was awesome.

this post is just for fun!pls dont get offended.im not saying about you :D

well, to tell you the truth, im not really that offended.
quite happy because you were straight forward and didnt lie about what you think.
that's good.

and boohoo. you copied my sarcasm D: well, at least i know something, you think my sarcasm is good because you're copying it.
continue bashing me and telling me what you hate about me
at least, after test, i have something to do
i can change myself and become a jane that is so perfect that goh kwang hoe would pay attention to her and not bitch her out.
in the mean time you can go change your attutide because poo poo, it isnt perfect yet.
let's exchange thoughts since you want me to be the perfect person who never does anything bad and i expect the same for you because you think you're worthy to tell me about these stuff.
you say what's bad about me, i'll ding you back and tell you what i dont like about you
maybe we can be perfect by then and never fight anymore.
and no, this time, i wont let you off easy.
so you can learn from your mistakes and stop hurting other people.
you can say that back to me too and curse at me all you want
you want to call people come find me also can
beat me up? sure, why not
but then, that's a super sin liaw.
violence doesnt solve anything
so bitch me out until you shuang.
this is a good way for me to practice "sabar" skills.
chia hoe should try this out.
it's fun and enhances the typing skill. (:

I HATE COPYCATS!

oh oh, careful kwang~ your ego is filling your head up because i aint copying you ;D plus, im not a cat.

i used easy easy words for this blog post.
if you still dont understand, you can look up some words in the dictionary while i go study my chinese ^-^

signed;;

jane
the one who was claimed to be fucking stupid. (:

yay! im stupid~
and this post just wasted half an hour of my time -.-
thanks alot.

blah blah blah

2008-08-15T22:54:00.001-07:00

totally very behsong someone, will blog abt it tmrw. =/ !

still didnt update yesterday. tomorrow liaw oh~
i wanted to read the reason for why you suddenly turned so bitchy in msn ;D
and went yeayea, fine fine & we didnt call you sing la. dont come la.
lmao. what i do to you oh? so angry ahh you.
tsk tsk tsk.
you told chia ling i pissed you off?
macam like you didnt piss me off also
because of the drama? well, get over it
you also demanding and scream scream during the drama filming
plus, i didnt even scream at you weh.
and lol. see i was so nice lagi. take your bag for you ah xp
from class to hall. so far~
so heavy you know? what you put inside? -.-
rocks kan?

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anyways~ tuition last night fun kaliahh xD
so funny ehh.
that lonejie and yap bahh.
suddenly macam FBI! xD
yap sart leh, still got gun oh? xp
and frederick tapian! hahahah~ kidding xp
chia hoe, chia hoe, go pull down frederick's pants for whatt?
later his boxer kena see, he will paiseh one ah!
yap's toe cacat liaw~ thanks to me 8D
hahaha. yap was jumping around tuition. lol
it was so funny. seeing him jump around xD
lonejie and teo scared me eh -.-
the hide under the table
it was night time and it was dark
now ghost festival lagi eh
omg. i feel onto the floor xD
and lol~ qi fu sent yee koko xp
tukk~ punched his face softly xD
oh oh! one more thing lagi!

form 2 study in form 1 room on friday in the afternoon.
everyone talking~

-fan lao shi comes in-
-everyone keeps quiet except teo-
fan lao shi: teo and wen ru! come out~
-teo starts singing that alert song-
-wen ru goes out-
fan lao shi: EH TEO AH! come out!
-everyone keeps quiet including teo & teo walks out-
-teo reaches door-
-teo sings alert song again-
fan lao shi: WAH! got seh lagi!

hahahaha! so funny ah xD

beijing olympics~

2008-08-12T03:12:00.000-07:00

hahahaha. going crazy over olympics liaw. lol.
i checked the score just nowyay! china and korea top 3 wehh!
syok kaliah.
the chinese gymnastic people are awesome o__o
and still remember that cute little kid who was marching with yao ming at the opening ceremony?
muahahaha!
i finally know who he is and why he has the honor of marching in the olympics with one of the awesomest sport legends ever~
that little kid is one awesome person.
he's a mini sized hero with a HUGE heart.
he saved his two of his classmates and his great leading skills gave his other classmates hope in a very desperate time.
this boy will always remain as a hero in my heart for his brave and honorable action.

Little (big) Lin Hao survived one of the most dark, horrible days in the history
of the world. On May 12th, 2008, a massive earthquake measuring 7.9 on the
richter scale hit the Sichuan province in China, killing over 70,000 people.
According to the BBC, Lin Hao said “The corridor collapsed as I was walking. Two
of my classmates were trapped beside me. I tried as hard as I could to climb
out, and after I had climbed out I pulled a classmate out.”That classmate was
unconscious, and after carrying him to safety, he went back and carried the
second (also unconscious) to safety. When asked about his heroism, he replied
that he was a class leader, he was the ‘hall monitor’ after all, and it was his
responsibility. According to some reports, still later, he encouraged his fellow
surviving students to sing songs in order to keep up their spirits while they
awaited rescue and aid.20 of his 30 classmates died, but it could have been 22
if not for his amazing, noble efforts.After finding out that he'd lost both of
his parents, he left the area with his two sisters and made the 7 hour hike to
Du Jiang Yan.Lin Hao's brave heart certainly showed as he proudly represented
his country in the Parade of Nations during the opening ceremony of the 2008
Olympics.

this boy is so brave!
if i were in his position
i'd be scared and keep crying.
omg~ i still cant get over how awesome he is *-*
and he's younger than me lagi eh
i bet most people of our age arent even capable of saving people at that time.

so, anyways.
blah blah blah... nyam nyam nyam @-@
michelle is back from china.
mhm, with a new look and new attitude
and more stuff she wont tell me
time with kwang is lacking.
boohoo. me and jia yih kena abandon alot of times liaw.
but mehh. i learned how not attach to kwang so much already so im fine with her running off ^-^
jane is an independant person now~
yayness~

blahh. i hate BONG to the core
no no, not my class bong
the oh lang bong ~
nabehh leh!

YAY FOR OLYMPICS~
and die die die you fcking racist bastards who hate china because they're awesomer than you're country
die die die spanish basketball team for mocking the chinese
unless you pee brains dont know, china is the HOST country
hope you no luck and lose the match
mocking people isnt good.
especially at such an important event such as the olympics
you few people represent the country
tsk tsk tsk, your country should be ashamed to have racist bastards like you people ;D
you think you made fun of the chinese by doing that slang eye pose thingy for something official, well, your plans have failed as you are the ones who look like retards.
end of bashing. feel free to bash me back with non-stupid stuff.
if you dont have anything smart to say, it's best if you just shut up ;D

credits to soompi & http://my.opera.com/rjfink/blog/index.dml/tag/Lin%20Hao for the article about the awesome kid

credits to soompi for the spanish racism stuff and some other news website :/

blahh

2008-08-01T19:58:00.000-07:00

im SOOOO lucky to have such AWESOME friends, who can still camwhore and ignore me when im so damn fucking sick ^-^
yay for me!
too much sarcasm? >.>
wow. i cant believe it
when i had high fever in tuition yesterday, i was absolutely ignored by my friends eh.
so kahsiann la me
friends so lauya one.
i think the only person who cared for me was shannon. lol
but then, she also ignored me and camwhore with them not long later.
i still remember when kwang high fever eh, i worry bout her so much and take care of her in tuition lagi ehh.
and now, i get ignored even if my fever was super high.
you'll be happy to hear that i have to eat 2 fucking big panadols every damn 4 hours.
yay for me again!
and they're so damn big T___T wahh. so hard to swallow so had to cut into 4 parts.
yes, i suck like that. absolutely (:
mhmm... even if my brain was fobby that time, i could still remember how my friends "cared" for me.
shannon: your hands are so hot -touches forehead- WAHH! fever eh!
chia ling: OMG! OMG! I WANNA TOUCH < this one ah, so happy lagi. FUCK YOU!
me: dont touch -slaps chia ling's hand-
kwang, niing and ej: -doesnt know yet-
chialing: -kepo kepo go tell chiew niing they all-
niing: JANE! you feverr?
kwang: want panadol?
-jane is super annoyed due to headache-
jane: no.
then they go camwhore liaw. who can blame them?
im INVISIBLE anyways.
maybe if i die due to super super super high fever they also wont know or care one la.
im the luckiest person on earth, know that?
choi choi choi touch wood? fuck no. no choi choi choi.
jsdjksdhskjds >.>
kwang messaged me around 6.30 like that?
and asked me if i was going to tuition and if i was feeling better.
still doesnt make up for ignoring me.
so awesome of you to ignore me.
but still, thanks for messaging me
and yes, im ranting.
what are you gonna do about it?

ps: my fever is 38.6 degree c~ whoot! so i dont have to go to schoollll~ -does elephant victory dance- and lol, my fever went down already when i eat panadol. so i might be going to tuition at night. lalalalalala~

rainbow craze

2008-07-24T06:51:00.000-07:00

meh. self-explaining titles are always the best -pokes title-
took a few picture of rainbows
lazy to crop and add words to them, so live with it

- on my way to tuition in chia ling's car xD-

-same rainbow as above but taken from a different angle-

-different rainbow i took on my way to tuition again xD (chia ling car also xp)-

-this one is pretty 8D (same as above de)-

-lalala-

-love this shot for some reason xD-

-no comment-

-wuahh~-

-----------------------------------------------

today was weird oO
i was crying then laughing. wtf man
suddenly sad to happy
thanks to chia ling, shannon, chiew niing and frederick
lol. was playing hide and seek with them x:
baby la. hahahahah. little kids 8D
cut cut cut. lazy write. :/

might be changing tuition sometime soon if i keep complaining about the new teachers
since i have no reason to stay
i should let my complaints run freely now
instead of keeping them all in

klsjdklsd, waffles~

2008-07-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

made waffles with my nephew on sunday
yes, im slow. sue me why dont you =__=
so yeah, i was watching keroro gunso~
and then my nephew was bugging me to make them D:
so i was like, AFTER THIS EPISODE BAHH~ pleaseeee? T___T
and so yeah, i kept my word and went to take the stuff after that episode
lol, my nephew only know how to eat la xD
things to prepare:
2 cups waffle mix / pancake mix
1 and 1/3 cups milk
1 tablespoon oil (the box say 2 tablespoon but oily la so i decrease the amount)
1 egg (optional// if you want it fluffy)
lil bit of butter
1 LARGE mixing bowl
1 SMALL mixing bowl
1 mixing spoon
1 whisk (if you want egg)
1 WAFFLE MACHINE (without it, no use in making la. go eat pancake la you)

so let's first of all. you just follow the instructions on the box lo. add mix, milk and oil. siap if you want it like that nia. people ask me "eh, why your waffles more fluffier than my one ah? i thought same brand waffle as you also de."
me: i got secret mah. and you know what the secret is? 8D EGGS! egg white at least...
so first, you get your small mixing bowl.
you crack the egg lo and separate it.
keep in mind that, even the slightest bit of yolk can prevent your egg white from fluffing up.
tip: separate the egg when it's still cold (for noobs 8D)

-perfectly separated egg (im so proud of myself ^-^)-

so when you separate your egg liaw, take your awesome whisk of doom (or just your average whisk if you aint the vampire creature of the toilet like me) and whisk your egg until it is firm. try turning it upside down. if you falls, then you fail la. hmm... just move it left to right, if it moves, just continue beating it until it's really really firm.
tip: if you stir circularly and slowly, it wont rise. you have to pick up one end of your bowl, hold it tight, then beat it from bottom to up in a circular pattern until it's fluffed up. (you need alot of hand strength to achieve this)

-i put this above my head ;D (yeah bah, very confident)-

after that, FOLD in your egg into the mixture. people dont get me when i say fold. they still stir. stupid kaliah. you have to do it softly not like you orang ganas style. baru will fluffy.

-your batter will look like this and be very loose-

-half way making before i put in the waffle machine-

butter the machine so it wont stick later. put batter in your machine, when not much steam, means it's done. blah blah blah. take out lo. blah blah blah. serve with whatever you want.

-i put chocolate ice-cream on mine 8D-

extras:

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2008-07-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

it hurts.
my hear hurts alot
it's shattering into pieces
while im typing this, tears are falling out again
this is the second time im crying today
first time was when chia hoe inflicted pain to my arm by twisting it.
but now, uncontrollable tears are falling, it wont stop.
mental pain is far more worse than physical pain
and at this time, i have no one to go to for comfort.
as i am crying, im trying to chat happily so no one will notice
no one will ever notice the girl crying in a dark corner by herself.

oh lucky days ...
bokura no lucky days ...

it's not helping...
lucky days... one of the best songs to listen to at a time like this
failed for the first time
im typing this while doing alot of other stuff
and somehow, my tears ceased already
am i that stupid?
crying over something like this?
am i that stupid to almost believe you when all the evidence and clues were placed in front of me?
to think of giving up when i was only one step away from solving
i guess it all doesnt matter now
this... i no longer want to think about it.
i no longer want to talk about it
im sorry.
if i see you in a different way next time we meet.
which is probably monday.
are you trying to make me feel special?
telling me im the only person who knows?
well... you want to know how i feel?
at situations like this, you'd be thinking that i'll be angry, right?
to be honest, im not. im the least bit angry
instead of being angry, im depressed.
i feel so low... crying like this.
i dont like crying. i never did. who would?
tears keep coming and going.
the worst thing about it is that, i want it to fall. so i'll cry till im satisfied
but it wont fall. instead, it'll fill my eyes and dry off again then the process repeats again and again.
im trying to let you know how i feel in the least dramatic way i possibly could
if you want to be mad, go ahead and be mad.
i did my part as a best friend, now it's your turn.
im sorry, if i hurt you and ignored you just now when i was being depressed.
you should know... that when you're depressed because of someone, you should not talk to him/her for some time until you're over it
im ignoring you... so you wont get offended or hurt by my words when im like this
i just dont want you to worry, like you even would.
im not going to stop being your friend because of this, that would be dumb
sorry if any of this offended you.
you should know how i feel and try to understand
picture yourself in my shoe and try to feel how i feel
i hope... that you wont do this to me ever again...

paparazzi

2008-07-12T22:27:00.000-07:00

currently listening to Ajoo's paparazzi featuring Younha.
it's nice you know?
when Ajoo debuted in February, i had to admit, i didnt really like First Kiss. but alarm 06 is good.
and this month ajoo release his mini album
title track, Paparazzi. it's very very nice.
the song's very catchy. nice.

here's ajoo's paparazzi -

hmmm.... being paranoid right now?
yeah. what ever. displeasure.
minor headache ahh @___@
you know what?
i miss the old days. back in primary. how many times did i say that already?
i think alot of times liaw.
well, i miss primary days
when it was just me, abi and reychelle.
abi's going on the 18th.
i miss her already T___T
forgot to mention that michelle went to china to study for 1 month.
to be honest, i dont really miss her yet.
hmm, now i can savior a day of peace.
too bad, sien chung, joel, kah choing, boon keat, vk and linyong's still there.
or it might have been the best day of school i ever had.
(not saying that i dont want michelle with me)
im just saying that it's nice when it's less noisy and there's no shouting
michelle is still my friend, so dont get anything wrong (:
im still trying to calm my headache
and it's working.
whenever i have a headache, i'll listen to upbeat music
those music you can use in night clubs de. hahaha nice kaliahh xD
list:
Up to the sky - Lexy
Last Farewell - Big Bang
Paparazzi - Ajoo
with u - Big Bang
Anystar - Lee Hyori
Circus - MC Mong
Ma People - Lexy
So Hot - Wonder Girls (for fun purposes only 8D)
Lucky Days - SS501 (because it's such a happy song)

^ hahahaha. i dont know if i missed out any but i'll be having another list in my next post of i leave out any by mistake. ^^

well, im stopping here now.

love jane//sora,
the girl who wishes to live in the past instead of the present

yerr~

2008-07-06T07:54:00.000-07:00

teacher adrian~
how can you quit after one lesson?
i thought you told me you'll try for one month first? T___T
i teach you now to make them keep quiet liaw you still quit. haiss
your decision la (:
fan zhen can still kacau you online xD
but you're right o:
you're like. 20+ nia
and care about image alot, quit also not that bad la
because very stressing teaching us xD
especially when the maktab sains girls go *q*
if i were you, i'd be scared also xD

bahh kwang
on la.
we go shopping and i cook some nice nice food for you xD
but chocolate cake, you eat already wuad last time xp
you still want sama dee?
hahahahaha.

and yay!
update my blog layout liaw xD
nice kann?
and kwang, you pasti happy lah.
i listen to you so much xDD

grr! perfect imperfection read until chapter 14 already but the author is taking a break from writing T___T
chapter 4 is like a cliff hanger again
ahh~ i die la T___T

lalalaa~ sports day syokk ehh!
now i baru tahu zhihung run so fast de
welfred you very very sartt~ ^-^
you run so long liaw when i say hi to you, you still didnt look tired. xDD
aik is awesome too x3

long time update!

2008-06-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

puahahaha.
i promised kwang that i would dedicate a super sweet and cheesy post to her xp
but then, i decided that i'll drop it
it's just a post nothing special
i'll aim for the specialer! < is this a real word? xD
so yeahh, something more special than you think
imma sing for you, you kwang arse xp
sing for kwang arse and the other people i love
imma embarrass myself when i post my song for lynn anyways
so why not double the embarrassment? lol
so yeahh, check back soon and you'll hear my awful singing x:

anyways, yesterday was a day to remember actually...
on the 26th of June 2007, a person very dear to us left us forever.
freddie, how are you doing up there?
it's been a year since we last saw you.
we truly miss you alot.
although you're not here with us in person, you'll always be in our hearts.
we love you fred!

sorry to azim because i didnt attend your birthday party
i had tuition and mom wont let me skip.
i hope you had a great birthday.

yesterday, tuition was kinda fun.
we have new teachers! o:
and the teacher that will be teaching us science is a guy
damn that chialing, she kept spazzing xD
michelle sent me a message about freddie's 1st anni which almost caused me to burst out crying in front of so many people. damn you michelle!
so yeahh, new teacher. a guy.
the old science teacher was so evilll! o:
she said "only give them break if they behave"
uwuahhh~ no chances of us having break already. lol
that time still early, only me, chialing and khew there xp
ya, chms student very guai one. always come early
lol. geo teacher came and i help her staple paper on the table there near the door (where the guy teacher was standing)
chialing come la... and she was like... omg! omg!
"what you doing here?" teacher ask chialing
"see him laa~" chialing said. and i got a paper cut. OUCHH~
"see alvin?" teacher joked.
"ISHHH~" chialing stormed off and left us two laughing xDD
yesterday teacher give us cheese cake! wahh laoshii so geng man xp
the cheesecake tasted so nice but she say very dry. hahaha. kanasaii la teacher xp
teacher is good at backing! 8D
puahahahaha. i had 4 of her lovely cheesecake. yes, i got the most because teacher loves me best x3 lol. kidding kidding xp
me and shan sit outside. hahahah. talk to science teacher 8D
it was fun.
me: im stalking you teacher
teacher: yeah you are~
shan: she call you everyday ahh~
teacher: she doesnt even have my number
me: hahahahaha~
-some form 3 people come out and ask teacher-
i texted teacher "hello teacher! im your stalker!"
me: teacher, your phone is ringing -teacher's phone starts to ring-
lol. teacher glared at me xD
shan also message her la xp
when the form 3 people left, teacher saved our number
and when she got to mine she ask me if i have a cousin in australia
i ask her which one, she say my cousin name. omg! syokk! xD
helped geo teacher carry her heavy file down to her car. lol~
fang xue liaw, i was like
"bye bye teachers!" to the science teacher and the form 1 teacher and actually to the geo teacher (who was teaching us yesterday) too but she was inside D:
so i went like "bye bye zhen lao shii!" hahaha. she turned around and glared at me xD
science tch: what about me?
me: i dont know your name o: you didnt want to tell me
science tch: im teacher lim!
me: bye bye teacher lim! i'll send you a birthday message tomorrow!
science tch: at 12am la!
me: can cannn!
teachers laughed and i went out xDD
at 12am sharp i sent a message to both her phone, puahahaha
syok lehh? 12am SHARP lagi x3
i bet im the first to greet her today! hahahahaha
she replied me 17 minutes later xp
and i asked her to look at the time i sent the message
and she also say i very syok because right on time xD
lol

kwang kwanng~ xp
i'll sing a chinese song for you asses xp

new email add

2008-06-14T01:23:00.000-07:00

as some of you might know, im going to switch account soon.
so say bye bye to me! 8D
yesterday i made a new account and added some people already.
today, i think i finished adding everyone i want
it was hard, because people kept signing in and out
i didnt add EVERYBODY in my old list
if i did, then there's no point in making this new account already lu... right?
i didnt add you?
feel like kicking my butt now?
you wanna know why?

reasons for not adding some people;;
- might have missed (feel free to leave a tag here if so ^^)
- we dont chat much anymore (yeahh... who wants to talk to people you dont talk to anymore?)
- you treat me as a second option, crap, nothing. (who wants to chat with people like that?)

now do you still want to kick my butt? ^^
people i've missed can do that xD

you think that i should add you?
feel free to approach me here and ask what you did wrong.
im sure i can give you a reason (this does not apply to people i missed because i will add you ^^)
if im able to do it, then feel ashamed.
if im not, i'll apologize to you and give you a lollipop.
i have a good reason to not add you.
it's probably because im nothing to you, if so then fuck off.

so the people who i added here are the people i believe will be talking to me, classmates, forumers from lovefti and r-ealhost, and people i need to contact or people i just feel like adding.

i will not leave my new email address here.
try to get it from me ( i doubt anyone will)
people whom i've added,
please do not give it out or i'll kick your butt =___=
if someone asks for it, please ask me first before you give it out.

ps to kwang: i'll write your dedication post when my head stops hurting xD

lyrics for jm (:

2008-06-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

puahahahaha~
the lyrics for at least i still have you xD
was listening to it when jm ddal suddenly talked about it o:
dont copy this WHOLE thing jm xD

Kyuhyun:
我怕來不及我要抱著你
Wo pa lai bu ji Wo yao bao zhe ni
直到感覺你的皺紋
Zhi dao gan jue ni de zhou wen
有了歲月的痕跡
you le sui yue de hen ji

Zhoumi:
直到肯定你是真的
Zhi dao ken ding ni shi zhen de
直到失去力氣
Zhi dao shi qu li qi
為了你我願意
Wei le ni Wo yuan yi

Donghae:
動也不能動也要看著你
Dong ye bu neng dong Ye yao kan zhe ni
直到感覺你的髮線
Zhi dao gan jue ni de fa xian
有了白雪的痕跡
You le bai xue de hen ji

Ryeowook:
直到視線變得模糊
Zhi dao shi xian bian de mo hu
直到不能呼吸
Zhi dao bu neng hu xi
讓我們形影不離
Rang wo men Xing ying bu li

Chorus:

All:
如果全世界我也可以放棄
Ru guo Quan shi jie wo ye ke yi fang qi
至少還有你
Zhi shao hai you ni
值得我去珍惜
Zhi deo wo qu zhen xi
而你在這裡
Er ni zai zhe li
就是生命的奇蹟
Jiu shi sheng ming de qi ji

也許全世界我也可以忘記
Ye xu Quan shi jie wo ye ke yi wang ji
就是不願意
Jiu shi bu yuan yi
失去你的消息
Shi qu ni de xiao xi
你掌心的痣
Ni zhang xin de zhi
我總記得在那裡
Wo zong ji de zai na li

Siwon:
我怕來不及
Wo pa lai bu ji
我要抱著你
Wo yao bao zhe ni
直到感覺你的髮線
Zhi dao gan jue ni de fa xian
有了白雪的痕跡
You le bai xue de hen ji

Hangeng:
直到視線變得模糊
Zhi dao shi xian bian de mo hu
直到不能呼吸
Zhi dao bu neng hu xi
讓我們形影不離
Rang wo men Xing ying bu li

Ryeowook:
如果全世界我也可以放棄
Ru guo Quan shi jie wo ye ke yi fang qi
至少還有你
Zhi shao hai you ni
值得我去珍惜
Zhi deo wo qu zhen xi
而你在這裡
Er ni zai zhe li
就是生命的奇蹟
Jiu shi sheng ming de qi ji

Zhoumi:
也許全世界我也可以忘記
Ye xu Quan shi jie wo ye ke yi wang ji
就是不願意
Jiu shi bu yuan yi
失去你的消息
Shi qu ni de xiao xi
你掌心的痣
Ni zhang xin de zhi
我總記得在那裡
Wo zong ji de zai na li

Henry:
我們好不容易
Wo men hao bu rong yi
我們身不由己
Wo men shen bu you ji
我怕時間太快
Wo pa shi jian tai kuai
不夠將你看仔細
Bu gou jiang ni kan zi xi

Kyuhyun:
我怕時間太慢
Wo pa shi jian tai man
日夜擔心失去你
Ri ye dan xin shi qu ni
恨不得一夜之間白頭
Hen bu de yi ye zhi jian bai tou
永不分離
Yong bu fen li

All:
如果全世界我也可以放棄
Ru guo Quan shi jie wo ye ke yi fang qi
至少還有你
Zhi shao hai you ni
值得我去珍惜
Zhi deo wo qu zhen xi
而你在這裡
Er ni zai zhe li
就是生命的奇蹟
Jiu shi sheng ming de qi ji

也許全世界我也可以忘記
Ye xu Quan shi jie wo ye ke yi wang ji
就是不願意
Jiu shi bu yuan yi
失去你的消息
Shi qu ni de xiao xi
你掌心的痣
Ni zhang xin de zhi
我總記得在那裡
Wo zong ji de zai na li

Eng. Translations

1st verse:
I'm afraid there's not enough time, I want to hold you
Until your wrinkles have traces of the years

Until I'm sure you're real, until I lose my strength
For you, I'm willing

Even if I can't move, I want to look at you
Until your hair has traces of white snow

Until my vision becomes blurred, until I can't breathe
Let us be as inseparable as body and shadow

Chorus:
Supposing I could let go of the whole world
At least I still have you, deserving me to cherish you
And having you here is a miracle of life

Perhaps I could forget the whole world
I'm just not willing to lose your news
The mole in your palm, I always remember it's there

2nd verse:
I'm afraid there's not enough time, I want to hold you
Until your hair has traces of white snow

Until my vision becomes blurred, until I can't breathe
Let us be as inseparable as body and shadow

(chorus)

Bridge:
It's not easy for us, our bodies are not free
I'm afraid time is too fast, I can't see you clearly

I'm afraid time is too slow, I worry day and night that I'll lose you
Wishing that we'll grow old in one night, and never be apart

(chorus)

credits: JaPaNxxGiRl @ youtube.com

------
this is the perfect song (:
thank you to the people who cheer me up
and went ups and downs with me
there's was a long list, now the list became short
for tonight;;
the crazy girls i chatted with...stillchatting xD (jm, emma, liza, yien), sentyee koko, thomas daddy (:

i should update more o:

2008-06-10T00:30:00.000-07:00

wellllll~
flame me all you want xDD
im busehhh~
yeahrightiamxp
i went to OGDC again today
for traffic competition thingy training (:
as usual
went to class first
hahahaha. i brought Nitendo DS this time
im brilliant
bought a new phone, by the way.
W660i, the only "PERFECT" model for me xD
yeahh. im picky with stuff, sue me why dont you?
oh yeah, went to OGDC today
in the bus, we play games for a while, listen to music, talked, played card games
after a freaking long trip to Seria, we finally got there! o:
this time no ideal liaw T____T
NOO FOOOOOD FOR US T____________T
we went straight to the training course
got the bicycles again
evil us, we love claiming xDD
WUAHAHAHAH! im the 4th person to finish all the destinations
and the first person with a vehicle to finish~
whoot~
but then got some malay girls
wasaii.
they even got first aid people
kyong la, so lauya kan?
we ride so much faster than them, also didnt get hurt la
i even stand up on the pedals
talk about awesome xD
so yeahh, when they all finish liaw
walked around taking pictures o:
it was fun xD
we went to the exhibition todayyy~
so fun ehh!
they even had the earthquake thingy
grr. darn you michelle D:
she started off with small shake
the medium
then when she said she'll stop already, she go press large
and the house shaked like crazy
but then, it was fun xD
when i got out, i couldnt walk properly o:
PUAHAHAHAHA~ michelle got what she deserved xD
she got owned by teacher anthony and went to touch the electric thingy
and she got shocked xDD (note, she didnt die o: the machine was suppose to do that)
by the way, only 5 people went in.
because the others are cheap asses who stayed outside
(PLAYING WITH MY DS T____T)
lonejie killed the battery D:
it was fun inside =D
when went outside and to the bus
some people were missing o:
so me and michelle had to go look for them
(because kwang was one of the missing people too)
we guessed that they were in ideal, so we went there
actually, ran there xD
and they were there o:
went to the bus, on the way there
there was this cute guy standing outside the information department xD
i was like "OHMYGADDD~" in my head xD
went to bus, and to the food court! o:
bought ABC, it was so cold and sweet *O*
iloveitt~
ate seria kueytiaw in the bus
hahaha. my bag is a good table o:
played around and bullied boonkeat xD

this post will end here 8D
i'll show you my poster when im done

currently listening to;; suju M - zhe yi miao
currently doing;; psing singyee's banner and making a poster xD

ohmygahhh~

2008-05-19T01:46:00.000-07:00

Dear members,

With my beautiful dongsaengs..
I'm about to start beautiful (?) boarding life...
Even though I've spent more than a year working with them...
Now we are going to be together even when sleeping and washing.
Good dongsaengs..You guys look nervous at the thought of sensitive me walking in...
mm...you don't need to worry... (I'm just a little cold, and just a little clean. :D)
Because...I love you guys. :D
I'll love you guys a lot even in bed...kekeke..

by am12

Credit:: Naverblog/guysdream + 1takeKK@R-eal host [translations]

curse you and your pedoness yoon~ xDD
your wrong and pedoish post just made me laugh like mad when i reread it
and it made my headache worse T____T
*throws old shoes at yoon*
hahahaha. i was memorizing history essay while listening to R-eal's Make L.o.v.e
omgggg~ i love that songg *O*
oh.... and i was also texting with kwang
hahahaha. keysiaw la that womannn~
oh.... PEDO STATUS RULES YO! x:
yoon oppa hwaiting!
better not touch my inseok thou...

Good dongsaengs..You guys look nervous at the thought of sensitive me walking in...
^ seriously, that sound SOOO wrong Yoon xDD
i was going crazy over that
sounded like you were about to rape them
hahahahaha.
imagine pepul imagineee!
okay, let me help you imagine with a short scene :D

picture a dark and stormy night first
sangil, inseok, changhyun and jinwoong sitting in a room
sangil, inseok playing ps2
while changhyun is reading a cookbook
and jinwoong on the computer
then... the door opens
a flash of light came down
DUN DUN DUNNNN~
standing at the door is Yoon, with an evil smirk on his face
the boys look terrified
inseok dropped his controller, his eyes wide opened
*inserts ominous music in the background*
now i shall stop thinking, before i think any further
ahem...
anyways, im being a bad girl :D
going online although im on hiatus
hey. i need to relax yo x:

more keysiaw moments xp

2008-05-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

hahaha~ me and kwang gila liaw la
we admit! :D
vampire and superwoman try to stop rice from taking over the world~

- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
china chinaaaaaaa * in high pitch
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
whoot~
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
we can go shopping together in japan~
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
oh oh oh! can stop by thailand also
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
buy rice for the victims
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHAHAHAHAA !!!!!!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
but heavy wehh
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
later cannot fly .___.
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHA
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
yeahlo
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
bahh. feed the rice chicken wing also~
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
hmmmmm ... xD
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHAHAA !!!
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
later they dont listen to what i say
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
the rice fly away themself
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
& there comes a " RICE CHICKEN WING" monster
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
HAHAHAHA~
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
they destroy the earth
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
& eat human
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
put leash luu~
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHAHA
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
LAMO!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
LMAO!*
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
siao la~ where got rice eat human de?!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
xD
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHAHAAHA
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
got
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
human eat rice baru got wehh!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
OH! OH!
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
cause human eat rice
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
i knowww!
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
now they revenge
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
AHAHAHAHA
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
because they bu shuang
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
people eat them
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
yepp xD
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
but so small the rice
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
omg, our imagination over ord
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHA
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
what can they do? xp
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
land one bag of themselves on our heads?!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
NUUUU T________T
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
i dont want to die
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHAHAA !!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
being killed by a rice bag D:
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
hides xD
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
yeah
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
good thing we can fly
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
later their power finish liaw we go eat them lagi xD
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA !!!
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
oh yea hor
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
1 chicken wing 3 hour
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
their power finish
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
YAY! they wont take over the world & name the earth RICE WING.
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
AHAHA
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
HAHAHAHAHA~
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
then i go feed your chicken wing to marshmallows and bunnies >D
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
DUN DUN DUN DUNNNNN~
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
NO NO !!
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
bunnies shall take over the world
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
BWAHAHAH~
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
i dnt want bunny to take over the world xD
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
lol~ why not? xp
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
NO
- *superwomann11. [c=29]" imwaitingforyou.[/c] says:
bunny so gali xD
★ s o r a _ * one’three ; asongonlyforyou says:
yerr~ so cute. where got gali? xp

yes, we like being crazy :D

hiatus will start... now? xD
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LOL. weird day.

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we're 4 year old kids~

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